God always knows how and when to place things, situations, and people in my life. This month God has placed two wonderful women in my path on two different situations going on in my life. Both offering insight, inspiration and hope. I'm so very thankful.
This verse comes to mind:
Titus 2:3-5
Older women likewise are to be reverent in behavior, not slanderers or slaves to much wine. They are to teach what is good, and so train the young women to love their husbands and children, to be self-controlled, pure, working at home, kind and submissive to their own husbands, that the word of God may be reviled.
Friday, February 22, 2013
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
In the moment it was all God
(2-16-13)
I was beside myself with questions, worries, and concerns about what would happen next. What does all this mean? My husband went to go pick up his son from jail.
I stood in the dark mid way upstairs and downstairs. I waited to listen to how many foot steps I would hear coming up the walk way to the front door. Would it be just one set or two?
Before I knew it a dark shadow came up the stairs and embrace me tightly. My arms encircled him. He shook some and a few tears escaped from both of us. I finally asked my step son "Are you alright?" He shook his head yes. We parted.
I went to my room and not really sure what happened-not knowing what to do, say or feel. I sat on the edge of my bed and started to cry with such a deep intense feeling inside.
Shortly after that I plugged my ear with worship music for awhile then watched a movie with my husband and went to bed.
It was a bittersweet ending to a day with unrest while God was reaching out saying "Be still and know that I am God".
I was beside myself with questions, worries, and concerns about what would happen next. What does all this mean? My husband went to go pick up his son from jail.
I stood in the dark mid way upstairs and downstairs. I waited to listen to how many foot steps I would hear coming up the walk way to the front door. Would it be just one set or two?
Before I knew it a dark shadow came up the stairs and embrace me tightly. My arms encircled him. He shook some and a few tears escaped from both of us. I finally asked my step son "Are you alright?" He shook his head yes. We parted.
I went to my room and not really sure what happened-not knowing what to do, say or feel. I sat on the edge of my bed and started to cry with such a deep intense feeling inside.
Shortly after that I plugged my ear with worship music for awhile then watched a movie with my husband and went to bed.
It was a bittersweet ending to a day with unrest while God was reaching out saying "Be still and know that I am God".
I am Here! Rest in Me
(Saturday Feb 16)
Saturday I went to take pictures at a baby shower. From the moment I gathered up my camera and things I felt sort of off balance. I smiled and said "see ya later to my husband" and wished my son good luck on his Upwards basketball game.
I found myself feeling reserved and hiding in the back ground of the shower as people arrived. I knew most everyone. A couple of days now I've been feeling emotional but I was there to do what I enjoy doing...take pictures.
After taking a few pre-pics of the table setting and decorations my battery dies. Its a new camera and I had made sure it was charged before the shower. This quickly added to my unrest that I'd been struggling with from the start.
As I was stressing about my camera the working around me for the final touches being put out were going calmly and happy with joy--no stress. Even knowing that I may not be able to take pictures didn't change a thing that was going on around me according the ladies getting things ready.
Soon I was brought a little point and shoot camera. I thought okay I'll use it while my battery was charging and the guest of honor was running late so it was all good....for the the battery to have time to charge.
Well the little point and shoot camera dies after taking only two pictures. I didn't get what was going on! Was it not mean for me to take pictures or what!?
Soon I was approached and hugged saying "maybe you are not here to take pictures, maybe you are her to relax and enjoy some girl time."
It made sense and I was stressed but I just couldn't let it go. There were a few others that came u to me...expressing positiveness and joy. God was using them to get my attention...
I did manage to take some pictures with my camera. It was nice to be around everyone and hear cute stories being shared with a little advice for the mom to be. I did enjoy thinking about my kids being so small and what it was like to be a new mom.
But I still felt like I was looking in from the outside. I'm not sure why I felt the way I did and it bothered me greatly.
Looking back now I do see God was there with me and I went back and forth with my own agenda and His. His did win out in the end.
Before leaving the shower I received a text from my husband.
My step son had been arrested for shop lifting at Sears. (He left the house before Thanksgiving)
(next post is the next moment in my Saturday)
Saturday I went to take pictures at a baby shower. From the moment I gathered up my camera and things I felt sort of off balance. I smiled and said "see ya later to my husband" and wished my son good luck on his Upwards basketball game.
I found myself feeling reserved and hiding in the back ground of the shower as people arrived. I knew most everyone. A couple of days now I've been feeling emotional but I was there to do what I enjoy doing...take pictures.
After taking a few pre-pics of the table setting and decorations my battery dies. Its a new camera and I had made sure it was charged before the shower. This quickly added to my unrest that I'd been struggling with from the start.
As I was stressing about my camera the working around me for the final touches being put out were going calmly and happy with joy--no stress. Even knowing that I may not be able to take pictures didn't change a thing that was going on around me according the ladies getting things ready.
Soon I was brought a little point and shoot camera. I thought okay I'll use it while my battery was charging and the guest of honor was running late so it was all good....for the the battery to have time to charge.
Well the little point and shoot camera dies after taking only two pictures. I didn't get what was going on! Was it not mean for me to take pictures or what!?
Soon I was approached and hugged saying "maybe you are not here to take pictures, maybe you are her to relax and enjoy some girl time."
It made sense and I was stressed but I just couldn't let it go. There were a few others that came u to me...expressing positiveness and joy. God was using them to get my attention...
I did manage to take some pictures with my camera. It was nice to be around everyone and hear cute stories being shared with a little advice for the mom to be. I did enjoy thinking about my kids being so small and what it was like to be a new mom.
But I still felt like I was looking in from the outside. I'm not sure why I felt the way I did and it bothered me greatly.
Looking back now I do see God was there with me and I went back and forth with my own agenda and His. His did win out in the end.
Before leaving the shower I received a text from my husband.
My step son had been arrested for shop lifting at Sears. (He left the house before Thanksgiving)
(next post is the next moment in my Saturday)
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
God is the Lover of my soul
A friend of mine today helped me to see that no matter where this Valentines Day finds me or doesn't that the real true love of my life should be and always will be my Lord and Savior.
God is the lover of my soul
He knows me thru and thrue
He accepts me just as I am--
flaws, sins, weariness, messes and all
He is always there, never far.
He sacrified for me.
God's love is amazing and true
His power and strength
surpasses all understanding.
God brings hope. He is Hope.
God is Love.
God is who I'm "in love" with.
I crave to know Him as He
cradles me in His hands
waiting for me to be totally
consumed with him
to live with him inside of me
as I share Him with others.
God is the one who has my heart.
He knows my heart.
He is the lover of my soul.
Sunday, February 10, 2013
Life can change quickly
In my line of work (Comfort Keepers, helping the elderly) I have come to learn how quickly things can change in a person's life. I can go to care for a client in the morning to getting a phone call early the next day saying that they have passed on. One day the client may be doing well and then as my shift ends and I leave then I hear that things started to change and go down hill with them. Moment to moment things in our days.....in our life's can change so quickly big or small.
A friend of mine is going thru something that has brought change to her life and her family's. The unknown from moment to moment can be hard to handle, but its not for us to take on by ourselves. I'm so happy to know that my life is being lead by the Lord. I see it in my friend's life.....she is so full of the good Lord hanging on and trusting in him.
Lord you are glorious! Thank you for showing me the ups and downs in the many moments of life. Thank you for bringing me to my knees when I need to look up ward instead of inward.Thank you for placing the people, situations and things into my life so that I know who to turn my trust to and hang on to as you fill me with hope for the next change in the next moment of my life and others.
A friend of mine is going thru something that has brought change to her life and her family's. The unknown from moment to moment can be hard to handle, but its not for us to take on by ourselves. I'm so happy to know that my life is being lead by the Lord. I see it in my friend's life.....she is so full of the good Lord hanging on and trusting in him.
Lord you are glorious! Thank you for showing me the ups and downs in the many moments of life. Thank you for bringing me to my knees when I need to look up ward instead of inward.Thank you for placing the people, situations and things into my life so that I know who to turn my trust to and hang on to as you fill me with hope for the next change in the next moment of my life and others.
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
A very heavy heart
This morning my heart is very heavy. I found out that a dear friend of mine has cancer. All I can do is pray and hang on to our almighty powerful Lord. He is in control. He has her and her family in His hands.
I don't have any words right now....just emotions leading to constant prayer.
I don't have any words right now....just emotions leading to constant prayer.
Plus or Minus
There is a positive behind every negative...a blessing in the mix of it all with a lesson wrapped up surrounded with love and hope from the Almighty God.
2-5-13
Looking over the scrapbook I made with pictures of my new blended family. At one point it troubled my heart to complete it. It was completed on a hopeful moment and set aside to avoid on a hurtful low moment.
Today with a few thoughts running through my head as I reflect on the bible study subject....contentment...I reached for the scrapbook.
I sat down to look over each page, turning each slowly. As I turned I could smile at the good memory on the page while I could tell you about a negative bump in each memory on the page but even though I found this time while browsing that my heart didn't ache so much with sadness but with hope and joy.
Realizing that we have come out of each of those moments with smiles, hugs & laughter....positive instead of a negative.
I'm able to feel hopeful and I think I'm starting to understand contentment a little more.....
2-5-13
Looking over the scrapbook I made with pictures of my new blended family. At one point it troubled my heart to complete it. It was completed on a hopeful moment and set aside to avoid on a hurtful low moment.
Today with a few thoughts running through my head as I reflect on the bible study subject....contentment...I reached for the scrapbook.
I sat down to look over each page, turning each slowly. As I turned I could smile at the good memory on the page while I could tell you about a negative bump in each memory on the page but even though I found this time while browsing that my heart didn't ache so much with sadness but with hope and joy.
Realizing that we have come out of each of those moments with smiles, hugs & laughter....positive instead of a negative.
I'm able to feel hopeful and I think I'm starting to understand contentment a little more.....
Sunday, February 3, 2013
I believe You are good
My heart was heavy in church this morning and this song that we started singing brought tears to my eyes. I couldn't sit there too far into singing the song. My voice chocked and tears started to come forth....I got up and went to the ladies room. I dabbed my eyes with a Kleenex and took a few deep breaths and asked God to hear my pray and look into my heart. I went back in and the song was over. I found the rest of worship hard to sing to so I closed my eyes and let listened and let the words and the music enter into my heart and mind.
Hungry
Hungry, I come to You
For I know You satisfy
I am empty, but I know
Your love does not run dry
So I wait for You, So I wait for You
I’m falling on my knees, Offering all of me
Jesus, You’re all this heart is living for
Broken, I run to You
For Your arms are open wide
I am weary, but I know
Your touch Restores my life
So I wait for You, So I wait for You
I’m falling on my knees, Offering all of me
Jesus, You’re all this heart is living for
The Goodness of God
My God is a giver, an overflowing river
Pouring His lavish love on us
Season after season we give him every reason
To stop, but he never does
(Chorus)
Oh-oh-oh, the goodness of God
Is flooding my heart with peace
Oh-oh-oh, the goodness of God
Is bringing me to my knees
My God is a Father
Who ransoms sons and daughters
Pouring His costly love on us
His greatest treasure given
His Son crushed to make us whole
(Bridge)
We...We believe You are good
We believe You are good, You are good
We believe You are good
We believe You are good, You are good
Revelation Song
Worthy is the Lamb who was slain
Holy, Holy, is He
Sing a new song to him who sits on
Heaven's mercy seat
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