Today is New Year's Eve. I can not believe that another year has gone come and gone. This past year was a little rough and sad with losing my dad. Each year brings its joys and tough times.
For about a week now I have had this feeling that there will be changes made in my life real soon, within my own and with others that are around me and close by. I can't say if those changes are will be good or not but I'm not doing it alone and God knows what his plans are to be.
Lately I ask him to give me the boldness, courage, and strength to walk forward into what he has planned for me in my life. I can feel a change and I want to be ready for it.
Life in this world can only be done with Christ so no matter what it brings into mine I will be alright and change will work out in the ways it should with His guidance. The part I struggle with and most of us do, is the not knowing all of what to do. God only reveals parts here and there, not to hurt us but to grow us, for us to continue to seek and lean on Him.
There is one change on the horizon right now......my "job". Many of you may know that I have been care giving for a very dear and close friend for over a year now. Her mother joined the Lord in September and now her father is on the his road to do the same. I'm not sure what opportunity lays ahead for me but I do ask the Lord to show me what I need to see, and to prepare my heart and mind for the next change.
Thursday, December 31, 2015
Behind the Smile
Behind my smile there has been tons of things going on. Thoughts that lead to sadness, some tears, some frustration and countless thankfulness in the mix of it all. Being thankful and searching and hanging on to the joys is like the glue to me, its what keeps things going and moving in a good way and with God's hand holding mine as we walk along together each day in this world.
Behind the smiles are the moments of worry and thoughts that can consume me at times of being a mother and wanting what is best for my children. As a mother of teenagers I have been having to learn to let go. Letting go hoping and praying that I laid the foundation down for them to know right from wrong, to make wise decisions and to live their lives with feet that lead toward Jesus. I know the seeds were planted and are there and that the Lord will do the rest in His time. Its so hard not to want to try to control all areas of their lives, but I can't. I hold them up in prayer and keep plugging along with the moments that come about with each of them as they grow and learn and live.
Behind the smiles are the frustrations and weight of this world that it has to offer each of us in ways of surviving in it with how to do this, or how to pay this....etc. I'm struggling with getting health insurance for myself and the kids. The basics of managing a household are normal stresses but they are there.
Behind the smiles are "what am I going to do after this job ends?" I have been toying with the idea of going back to school so I can find a job that I can get insurance with. Maybe go get my CNA.... I need to work to take care of my kids because I don't have a normal marriage...that in itself brings a whole bunch of things "behind the smiles"
Behind the smiles of wanting things to change in my relationship with my husband.
Behind the smiles is where life is lived and it's not the easiest to do but I continue to look towards God with a huge *sigh of admission of I can't do this without You....
Behind the smiles are the moments of worry and thoughts that can consume me at times of being a mother and wanting what is best for my children. As a mother of teenagers I have been having to learn to let go. Letting go hoping and praying that I laid the foundation down for them to know right from wrong, to make wise decisions and to live their lives with feet that lead toward Jesus. I know the seeds were planted and are there and that the Lord will do the rest in His time. Its so hard not to want to try to control all areas of their lives, but I can't. I hold them up in prayer and keep plugging along with the moments that come about with each of them as they grow and learn and live.
Behind the smiles are the frustrations and weight of this world that it has to offer each of us in ways of surviving in it with how to do this, or how to pay this....etc. I'm struggling with getting health insurance for myself and the kids. The basics of managing a household are normal stresses but they are there.
Behind the smiles are "what am I going to do after this job ends?" I have been toying with the idea of going back to school so I can find a job that I can get insurance with. Maybe go get my CNA.... I need to work to take care of my kids because I don't have a normal marriage...that in itself brings a whole bunch of things "behind the smiles"
Behind the smiles of wanting things to change in my relationship with my husband.
Behind the smiles is where life is lived and it's not the easiest to do but I continue to look towards God with a huge *sigh of admission of I can't do this without You....
Monday, December 28, 2015
Christmas 2015
Christmas 2015
Christmas morning was nice but went fast, soon after everyone ventured off to their rooms or spots of comfort until it was time to eat.
I'm thankful for having a business with Thirty One Gifts because it helped me buy the one thing that my son really wanted, a Ps4 :)
I loved seeing Kyle help Sara open her box that had what she really wanted in it, Chromebook.
Karlee ended up having a VS Christmas with the sweatshirt she really wanted and a few other items too.
Christmas morning was nice but went fast, soon after everyone ventured off to their rooms or spots of comfort until it was time to eat.
My Greatest Gift
Christmas Eve 2015
If you haven't figured out by now what my greatest gift was this year......it was having my family time. The evening was perfect and I'm so glad I didn't plan on games because it probably would not have happened, just going along without any expectations made the evening the best!
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| Karlee & Sara building a gingerbread house |
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| loved having all 3 of them together! |
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| Karlee told us that in that pile of frosting the ginger bread man was making snow angels :) cute |
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| my son laughed when he saw his Charlie Brown and Snoopy jammies :) he might not wear them much after that but the point was to have fun |
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| Relaxing and watching Christmas Movies together |
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| Had so much fun playing games (we don't do that very often) |
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| I didn't realize how fun Apples to Apples was :) |
Wednesday, December 23, 2015
Holidays, Family & Memories
Christmas is almost here, tomorrow is Christmas Eve, all the shopping is done, gifts wrapped, groceries bought, time off from work, teenagers ready and excited about Christmas :) All is well....
I have kept busy all day today but now I'm relaxing with Christmas music, a cup of hot chai and I'm taking a few moments to drift as I look at a picture of my dad and I together from two Christmas' ago. There is not enough snow on the ground yet, like two years ago and he isn't sitting in my living room watching Frosty with me when no one else will. Its the same tree, and same place but there are things, and people missing that make it different. Since he has been gone I'm trying to embrace "different" but it has not been easy and by no means successful yet, but each day things get a little easier and a little more different.
This year has been a beginning of "new" and "different" things without daddy on this earth with me. Angelia, she rents the bottom floor from us and she has 4 children and she and her family bring in a whole bunch of different :) but good. With her I drift back more often to when my kids were little and at young ages. With her I remember what it was like to juggle life, with kids, the crazy times of multi tasking She and I have become good friends. I love her energy and power of pushing through, her strength and love for her kids. I also remember the struggles of being a single mom as I watch her struggle too. But she isn't alone, and I try to be here for her when she needs some help. She on the other hand brings a "taste of life" back to me. It will be hard to explain but just know its all good.
Last night could be an example of that energy for life again....She invited Micah and I and the girls to join her and kids for dinner out. She and her kids every year dress up to the hilt and they go out for dinner. This year was different for her, since it was just her and the kids and things in her life are in a place that they were not use to being. But she found her spark and took off with it! She wanted us to dress up too and join them out for dinner. That was great and fine but to dress up......well we did even Micah, none of us looked as fancy as she did but it was perfect and fun! It was great to get out and do something different, making a new memory to reflect on later. I'm thankful for her suggestion and that we went :)
The next couple of days around here will be cozy and quite with just Micah, Karlee, Sara, Kyle and I. I think it will be nice to be all together, I've missed having Kyle around. I'm trying not to hold any expectations of what any of it will look like and just going to go with the flow and let things happen as they will, enjoying every moment with joy.
If I had something to toast with I would....because all of a sudden I feel like its has lead into one with "here here we have each other and it will be as it should, it will all be well" here is to making "different" good and joyful.
Tomorrow I will wake up, see where the day will take me and in between it all make a few pies, and jello salads for Christmas dinner :)
I have kept busy all day today but now I'm relaxing with Christmas music, a cup of hot chai and I'm taking a few moments to drift as I look at a picture of my dad and I together from two Christmas' ago. There is not enough snow on the ground yet, like two years ago and he isn't sitting in my living room watching Frosty with me when no one else will. Its the same tree, and same place but there are things, and people missing that make it different. Since he has been gone I'm trying to embrace "different" but it has not been easy and by no means successful yet, but each day things get a little easier and a little more different.
This year has been a beginning of "new" and "different" things without daddy on this earth with me. Angelia, she rents the bottom floor from us and she has 4 children and she and her family bring in a whole bunch of different :) but good. With her I drift back more often to when my kids were little and at young ages. With her I remember what it was like to juggle life, with kids, the crazy times of multi tasking She and I have become good friends. I love her energy and power of pushing through, her strength and love for her kids. I also remember the struggles of being a single mom as I watch her struggle too. But she isn't alone, and I try to be here for her when she needs some help. She on the other hand brings a "taste of life" back to me. It will be hard to explain but just know its all good.
Last night could be an example of that energy for life again....She invited Micah and I and the girls to join her and kids for dinner out. She and her kids every year dress up to the hilt and they go out for dinner. This year was different for her, since it was just her and the kids and things in her life are in a place that they were not use to being. But she found her spark and took off with it! She wanted us to dress up too and join them out for dinner. That was great and fine but to dress up......well we did even Micah, none of us looked as fancy as she did but it was perfect and fun! It was great to get out and do something different, making a new memory to reflect on later. I'm thankful for her suggestion and that we went :)
The next couple of days around here will be cozy and quite with just Micah, Karlee, Sara, Kyle and I. I think it will be nice to be all together, I've missed having Kyle around. I'm trying not to hold any expectations of what any of it will look like and just going to go with the flow and let things happen as they will, enjoying every moment with joy.
If I had something to toast with I would....because all of a sudden I feel like its has lead into one with "here here we have each other and it will be as it should, it will all be well" here is to making "different" good and joyful.
Tomorrow I will wake up, see where the day will take me and in between it all make a few pies, and jello salads for Christmas dinner :)
Wedding in Santa Fe
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| Here I am dressed and ready to go in my "snow storm" shirt! Micah said that is what it looked like. He had me in tears the other day before I packed it to go out of town lol. But I got compliments on it :) |
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| Santa Fe down by the square |
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| Micah's dad and step mom walking into the huge beautiful Catholic Church |
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| I like this pic a lot with the way the sunlight reflected on the pews from the stain glassed windows above. |
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| detailed, decorated wood |
The weekend in Santa Fe was nice with Micah's family. It was a beautiful wedding.
It was very Catholic, which is fine, just new for me to experience, but I do have to say one thing.....I'm thankful that I can be close to God without all those rituals. I just need a little quite moment and I've got Him right there :)
Monday, December 14, 2015
Comforting & Restful Day
My phone made a noise at 5:30 am letting me know I had a message. It was my daughter, Karlee informing me that they didn't have to go to school today, because of the snow. A snow day! I tried laying there a little longer, but then my phone rang at 6:00 am with a recorded official message about school being closed today. I decided to go ahead and get up and go downstairs to make coffee and get my day started. I wasn't sure yet if I was going to work at Jane's today or not.
Figured out shortly that I had a snow day too! What was I going to do today?
The morning started off slow with hanging out with Micah in the living room, drinking coffee and talking some while we sat on our devices.
I cleaned the kitchen, made a pumpkin pie, watched Frosty the Snowman, listening to Christmas music all day (so far), took a nap on the couch, fried some corn tortillas for chips and salsa. Drank some chai, then some tea and more tea....stayed cozy warm under 3 blankets in the living room watching the snow come down then stop and start again. Reflected on a some memories of my dad with a smile on my face and an ache in my heart.
It's 4:30 now and after all day long the sun has peeked through and gave way to a light blue, cloudy sky with snow covered pine trees as cars drive by on the slushy streets. I feel rested and at peace.
I haven't been out all day, I think I will go check the mail and continue with my comforting and restful day. It was a nice day, I enjoyed being at home today and look forward to a new day tomorrow.
Another thought that makes me smile as my heart aches a little is knowing how much God loves me and blesses my life, that makes life easier and lighter to live.
Figured out shortly that I had a snow day too! What was I going to do today?
The morning started off slow with hanging out with Micah in the living room, drinking coffee and talking some while we sat on our devices.
I cleaned the kitchen, made a pumpkin pie, watched Frosty the Snowman, listening to Christmas music all day (so far), took a nap on the couch, fried some corn tortillas for chips and salsa. Drank some chai, then some tea and more tea....stayed cozy warm under 3 blankets in the living room watching the snow come down then stop and start again. Reflected on a some memories of my dad with a smile on my face and an ache in my heart.
It's 4:30 now and after all day long the sun has peeked through and gave way to a light blue, cloudy sky with snow covered pine trees as cars drive by on the slushy streets. I feel rested and at peace.
I haven't been out all day, I think I will go check the mail and continue with my comforting and restful day. It was a nice day, I enjoyed being at home today and look forward to a new day tomorrow.
Another thought that makes me smile as my heart aches a little is knowing how much God loves me and blesses my life, that makes life easier and lighter to live.
Friday, December 11, 2015
Another day without
Here lately there hasn't been a moment that my dad isn't too far from my thoughts. More and more everyday its harder to realize that he is really gone....2 months doesn't seem very long. The more living life in the everyday of it all is when I noticed how I want to just pick up the phone and call him and share something about the kids, or just to say hello or to tell him that Micah got an elk again this year and how he should come visit us and eat an elk steak with us....
I'm looking out the window right now sitting here at Jane's and the wind is getting up and it looks so cold out side. I wish daddy could have come here to Flagstaff one more time to enjoy the snow. I think he liked the snow, heck he had the perfect big ole truck for it so there was no stopping him from going out in it. I remember the stories that would be told about when mom and him lived on the Navajo reservation about my Papa's 1968 Bronco. It was the beast of all broncos to go out in the snow with. They had fun with it on the roads and in the snow. My brother has the bronco now.
Its not as cold out as it looks, so dreary, but the cold weather is moving in this weekend. It's been unseasonably warm the last couple of weeks but that is going to soon change. Winter is arriving :)
With my daddy gone all I can think about are the good things, moments and childhood memories and the moments I don't have now with him. He wasn't perfect and he had bad habits and he had a funny way of doing things at times, and he spent too much money and he was prideful and didn't ask for help when it came to his house being clean and the property either but none of that matters to me. All that just goes away and its not something I think about or dwell on, it doesn't lessen the achy feeling of missing him. I miss him no matter of his faults and habits and such. I miss his voice. I miss his help with things. I miss him being there. I miss everything about him!
I don't say much to people about missing him, except to my kids and my husband. If someone hasn't experienced a loss then they don't seem to understand or know what to say...I realize that now and feel bad for the times I tried to comfort others and hope they gave me grace.
Lamentations 3:31-33 “For no one is cast off by the Lord forever. Though he brings grief, he will show compassion, so great is his unfailing love. For he does not willingly bring affliction or grief to anyone.”
I'm looking out the window right now sitting here at Jane's and the wind is getting up and it looks so cold out side. I wish daddy could have come here to Flagstaff one more time to enjoy the snow. I think he liked the snow, heck he had the perfect big ole truck for it so there was no stopping him from going out in it. I remember the stories that would be told about when mom and him lived on the Navajo reservation about my Papa's 1968 Bronco. It was the beast of all broncos to go out in the snow with. They had fun with it on the roads and in the snow. My brother has the bronco now.
Its not as cold out as it looks, so dreary, but the cold weather is moving in this weekend. It's been unseasonably warm the last couple of weeks but that is going to soon change. Winter is arriving :)
With my daddy gone all I can think about are the good things, moments and childhood memories and the moments I don't have now with him. He wasn't perfect and he had bad habits and he had a funny way of doing things at times, and he spent too much money and he was prideful and didn't ask for help when it came to his house being clean and the property either but none of that matters to me. All that just goes away and its not something I think about or dwell on, it doesn't lessen the achy feeling of missing him. I miss him no matter of his faults and habits and such. I miss his voice. I miss his help with things. I miss him being there. I miss everything about him!
I don't say much to people about missing him, except to my kids and my husband. If someone hasn't experienced a loss then they don't seem to understand or know what to say...I realize that now and feel bad for the times I tried to comfort others and hope they gave me grace.
Lamentations 3:31-33 “For no one is cast off by the Lord forever. Though he brings grief, he will show compassion, so great is his unfailing love. For he does not willingly bring affliction or grief to anyone.”
Psalm 18:28 “You, Lord, keep my lamp burning; my God turns my darkness into light.”
Matthew 5:4 “Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.”
Wednesday, December 9, 2015
The rest of Sara's 13th Birthday
So we go into Claires and we find this hat! A turkey hat! I wanted to embarrass the B-day girl just a little bit...but then I pushed the red button and did not expect the legs to start moving! It was so funny, I tried to video tape it on my phone but I failed at that so I think I was more embarrassed at not doing that than she was with the turkey hat on her head. It was funny :) I love how tolerated she is with me and my fun.
Not sure why? But she wanted her cartilage pierced. I know you are thinking why would I allow it....not sure why but there are worse things and I did get my 2nd hole in my ears when I was 17 (back when you didn't fill out an application just to get it done, just went and did it) but anyways.....there she is having your ear marked for the spot.
I think it hurt more than she anticipated....
the finished look....
Happy 13th Birthday Sara!
Then we got home from the mall to find her bedroom door covered in streamers....
and decorated.....
balloons....
more streamers and confetti on the bed
who was responsible for surprising her....her big sister!
Karlee helped her have a great day!
Karlee used a bunch of post it notes to make a 13!
Sara was also surprised at school, a few of her friends gave her gifts.
I'd say she had a really good day! Then to end it with her favorite meal and dessert....
The simple things makes this girl smile! Seasoned beef strips and mac n cheese!
And Chocolate oatmeal peanut better no bake cookies!
She picked up on the fact that I was thinking about her Papa when she saw that I had Duck Dynasty on....she cuddle with me on the couch and watch the re-runs with me :)
Feeling so blessed that the Lord gave her to me 13 years ago.
Tuesday, December 8, 2015
In the midst is joy
I love how God is with me at all moments of my day.
I woke up a little quite and a little sad and happy all together. Today my baby turns 13! Another teenager in the house, look out! My sweet smiling Sara Bear, I love her smile and how she makes me laugh. I'm so blessed that God gave her to me thirteen years ago.
Today would have been the day I'd get a phone call from my dad reminding me to get some pizza for the Birthday girl. But the call will not take place today....I can't hear his voice, his laugh.
Today marks 2 months that my dad has been gone. I met up with someone that I hadn't seen in a long time or talked to for a while either. She had posted on my V.I.P. page with Thirty One and won my grand prize that I was giving away. We met up for coffee at Starbucks. I sat there in the beginning thinking I hope she doesn't notice that my eyes are watery....
We talked of 31 and it was great and we have even planned a home party for January too but the best part of our time together was that we each had a story of a loved one we lost and we both shared. It has been 10 months ago that she lost her mom. God is so good when he planned this little meet and greet. It was more than giving a grand prize :)
She said something that I think I'm discovering some truth to it "the hardest are the 1st....the 1st this or that without the one we lost" The many little moments that we recall that bring our lost one to us. Also realizing that unless someone has lost then they will find it harder to understand or know how to comfort. It's showed us how we can give grace to others.
I'm at Jane's now until about 2:00 pm, then I'm going to go pick up the birthday girl from school and go to the mall together. Later I will fix her favorite thing to eat for dinner and this year instead of a cake she wanted, no bake chocolate peanut butter oatmeal cookies! I can handle that! lol
I carry my sadness quietly with me as I smile with my daughter and others today.
I woke up a little quite and a little sad and happy all together. Today my baby turns 13! Another teenager in the house, look out! My sweet smiling Sara Bear, I love her smile and how she makes me laugh. I'm so blessed that God gave her to me thirteen years ago.
Today would have been the day I'd get a phone call from my dad reminding me to get some pizza for the Birthday girl. But the call will not take place today....I can't hear his voice, his laugh.
Today marks 2 months that my dad has been gone. I met up with someone that I hadn't seen in a long time or talked to for a while either. She had posted on my V.I.P. page with Thirty One and won my grand prize that I was giving away. We met up for coffee at Starbucks. I sat there in the beginning thinking I hope she doesn't notice that my eyes are watery....
We talked of 31 and it was great and we have even planned a home party for January too but the best part of our time together was that we each had a story of a loved one we lost and we both shared. It has been 10 months ago that she lost her mom. God is so good when he planned this little meet and greet. It was more than giving a grand prize :)
She said something that I think I'm discovering some truth to it "the hardest are the 1st....the 1st this or that without the one we lost" The many little moments that we recall that bring our lost one to us. Also realizing that unless someone has lost then they will find it harder to understand or know how to comfort. It's showed us how we can give grace to others.
I'm at Jane's now until about 2:00 pm, then I'm going to go pick up the birthday girl from school and go to the mall together. Later I will fix her favorite thing to eat for dinner and this year instead of a cake she wanted, no bake chocolate peanut butter oatmeal cookies! I can handle that! lol
I carry my sadness quietly with me as I smile with my daughter and others today.
Saturday, December 5, 2015
Pizza, Hellos, & Birthdays
Daddy you have been heavy on my mind lately. It could be the holiday spirit that is messing with my emotions more lately but, I miss you. It almost seems that I miss you more and more since you have been gone. Next week on Tuesday, the 8th it will be 2 months that you will have been gone but also it will be our little Sara Bear's birthday! She will be 13! Yes a teenager now!
You would be calling to make sure I took some money out of the account to give to her for her birthday. You would also tell me its been too long its time to treat everyone to pizza. It was such a little thing but it made you happy knowing that you could treat us to pizza to enjoy.
As I type this my tears are breaking through as I sit here quietly this morning while everyone is sleeping on this Saturday morning.
Is this how its going to be when ever the kids have a birthday, showing signs of growing that I will break down and miss you so much? I can't call you and hear your voice and hear you tell me to give everyone hugs for you.
Why when you lose someone is when you think of the little things that made that person so special?
Tuesday, December 1, 2015
Update on the Ex
I hear the loud gurgle of his car pull up to the house to pick me up. I open the door to the strong smell of mouth wash, or toothpaste (something to mask his beer breath). It doesn't matter if his beer breath is from last night or this morning, its there.
We head to pick up the rental so that we can drive to Cottonwood for his doctor appointment. Its a new doctor for him in this long journey of figuring out whats wrong with him and how to treat him. A year ago they said he has Hepatitis C. He has been sick off and on and has been waiting for some relief.
Finally they will start treating him soon for the Hep C, but it will be a few weeks for the doctor to send over things to the VA doctor that Scott has and then they have to set up a time to test his liver to see how much cirrhosis is going on. From what we understood, Hep C is curable and will go away once treated. Depending on how much cirrhosis will depend on the length of the treatment.
Apparently the liver is a really tough organ and it will regenerate and heal in time and keep on going....but it needs the chance to do that. Scott was told once again how badly he needs to stop drinking. It doesn't matter if you have one drink at a celebration or many in the evening, with Hep C, alcohol will speed up and help the Hep C spread and keep going. Hep C is a virus that will just keep making you sick over and over, its goal is to move on from person to person so it can start over, spread and make sick. It can only be transferred through blood. (My son who lives with him, can not share razors for shaving)
The treatment requires a few different pill combos, taken several times a day over a period of time. The side affects are suppose to be very minimal. It was good to hear that there is an end in site for how he has been feeling.
We leave the Doctor's office feeling better, he was less nervous and more calm. We get in the car, sharing in conversation about what we heard, knew and understood. He pulled out of the parking lot and headed back towards the way to Flagstaff. Along the way shortly down the road he stops off at a convenient store to purchase a beer. I know! I looked at him and I said firmly and a little loud "really Scott! No" He said it was alright, its not like they started him on anything yet and then he tells me that he has cut way way back and it will be fine.
He gets back in the car and I simple say to him "it will defeat the purpose once you are taking that medicine if you drink. You could use this time of waiting to get started to completely quite." He said "I know and I have already made up my mind and I will stop"
Scott has his part to do and the doctors have theirs, I guess we will wait see who does their part......
I pray that Scott will do his.
We head to pick up the rental so that we can drive to Cottonwood for his doctor appointment. Its a new doctor for him in this long journey of figuring out whats wrong with him and how to treat him. A year ago they said he has Hepatitis C. He has been sick off and on and has been waiting for some relief.
Finally they will start treating him soon for the Hep C, but it will be a few weeks for the doctor to send over things to the VA doctor that Scott has and then they have to set up a time to test his liver to see how much cirrhosis is going on. From what we understood, Hep C is curable and will go away once treated. Depending on how much cirrhosis will depend on the length of the treatment.
Apparently the liver is a really tough organ and it will regenerate and heal in time and keep on going....but it needs the chance to do that. Scott was told once again how badly he needs to stop drinking. It doesn't matter if you have one drink at a celebration or many in the evening, with Hep C, alcohol will speed up and help the Hep C spread and keep going. Hep C is a virus that will just keep making you sick over and over, its goal is to move on from person to person so it can start over, spread and make sick. It can only be transferred through blood. (My son who lives with him, can not share razors for shaving)
The treatment requires a few different pill combos, taken several times a day over a period of time. The side affects are suppose to be very minimal. It was good to hear that there is an end in site for how he has been feeling.
We leave the Doctor's office feeling better, he was less nervous and more calm. We get in the car, sharing in conversation about what we heard, knew and understood. He pulled out of the parking lot and headed back towards the way to Flagstaff. Along the way shortly down the road he stops off at a convenient store to purchase a beer. I know! I looked at him and I said firmly and a little loud "really Scott! No" He said it was alright, its not like they started him on anything yet and then he tells me that he has cut way way back and it will be fine.
He gets back in the car and I simple say to him "it will defeat the purpose once you are taking that medicine if you drink. You could use this time of waiting to get started to completely quite." He said "I know and I have already made up my mind and I will stop"
Scott has his part to do and the doctors have theirs, I guess we will wait see who does their part......
I pray that Scott will do his.
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