In the midst is joy

I love how God is with me at all moments of my day.

I woke up a little quite and a little sad and happy all together.  Today my baby turns 13! Another teenager in the house, look out! My sweet smiling Sara Bear, I love her smile and how she makes me laugh.  I'm so blessed that God gave her to me thirteen years ago.

Today would have been the day I'd get a phone call from my dad reminding me to get some pizza for the Birthday girl.  But the call will not take place today....I can't hear his voice, his laugh.

Today marks 2 months that my dad has been gone.  I met up with someone that I hadn't seen in a long time or talked to for a while either.  She had posted on my V.I.P. page with Thirty One and won my grand prize that I was giving away.  We met up for coffee at Starbucks.  I sat there in the beginning thinking I hope she doesn't notice that my eyes are watery....

We talked of 31 and it was great and we have even planned a home party for January too but the best part of our time together was that we each had a story of a loved one we lost and we both shared.  It has been 10 months ago that she lost her mom.  God is so good when he planned this little meet and greet.  It was more than giving a grand prize :)

She said something that I think I'm discovering some truth to it "the hardest are the 1st....the 1st this or that without the one we lost"  The many little moments that we recall that bring our lost one to us.  Also realizing that unless someone has lost then they will find it harder to understand or know how to comfort.  It's showed us how we can give grace to others.

I'm at Jane's now until about 2:00 pm, then I'm going to go pick up the birthday girl from school and go to the mall together.  Later I will fix her favorite thing to eat for dinner and this year instead of a cake she wanted, no bake chocolate peanut butter oatmeal cookies! I can handle that! lol

I carry my sadness quietly with me as I smile with my daughter and others today.