Here it is Jan. 4th, 4 days into the new year, I sit here at the table with my butterfly coffee cup beside me and the house is silent for the moment. There is and has been a blanket of snow outside for weeks now, chill crisp air on this quite Saturday morning. I've been doing a lot of thinking lately and have decided to end this blog. I started my first blog in 2009 and then changed over to this format in 2010, so the timing of closing out 2019 and awakening to 2020 its been 10 years that I've blogged. Its time to end and begin again. Its time to put this blog in the past and keep moving forward in my personal journals. I've kept a written journal off and on since I was twelve. This blog has represented a huge chapter in my life and I feel it has served its purpose. I've changed so much over the last ten years, I'm not the same person that started this blog. I realize that this blog was my therapy, my way of dealing with all the crap in my life, a place to work things out and find the joy and blessings in it all at the same time. My life has been blessed with this blog and I pray that someone out there was blessed by it at some point to, even it was just helping with the feeling of not feeling like you were the only one out there.
I do plan on printing out my blog one day just so that I can always have a copy of it, its been like a book in my life and when you find a good book you hang on to it. I will sum up the last month or so before ending the blog. I'm excited in my next season of life to see what the next chapter in my life will write.
I know my story is not over, I just won't share it like I have in the past. I'm a stronger, more mature woman with grown and growing children, in a wonderful relationship with a man who loves all of me. Its time to keep moving forward with a little less hardship in my life and a lot more smiles, laughter, joy and blessings in it. I know things won't always be rosy and happy but I'm in a place in my life that I'm okay and I know I'm not alone. I never do life without God in it, I will continue to look to him for strength, guidance, peace and comfort.
