Surrounded by the right

6:00 pm Thursday evening,

Its really true when you surround yourself with the right people that love, care, support and encourage you it makes a huge difference in your life!

I have often told my kids that over the years as they have grown up, especially my step-son but we won't go there....

But its a nice reminder even as an adult how much we need the "right like minded" people in our lives.  Its also hard to hide if you try real hard.  I think I'm out of my hiding phase and into my cling, cling and cling phase to my heavenly father.

I'm also discovering the difference it makes to also work for someone that is also a believer and is lead by Christ.

I came home to find an envelope by my door with a nice card in it. (I actually made, its fun to get a card back that I have made with special words in it)  Anyways it made my evening to find such sweet and encouraging words in it from a very close friend of mine.

In just a few moments I will walk out the door to meet up with a couple of friends for dinner to catch up with each other.   We have missed our Thursday weekly mornings.

I'm feeling very blessed right now.

Once again I find myself in a good sweet place of being grateful for the moments in my life right now.

Busy Monday

Today the morning has blown away like it has been outside today!  The wind is crazy out there!  Gene called this morning and said because of the wind he wouldn't be driving back today to be in.  I was fine with it, I handled Friday fine.  But the moment he said he wasn't coming the phone got busy and people coming in....but I paused and looked at each item in front of me and picked one thing at a time to and so forth.  Now I'm enjoying a break eating lunch and listening to the wind howl outside.

I'm so grateful for this job I continue to look forward to what each day's brings while learning and training and studying....

The Reality

I recently posted a very short quick update post just the other day.  Its true I do like my new job and I'm struggling with studying but working hard at it.  I am moving forward the best I can.

Well that is the key word "I can"!  Wrong wrong wrong!! Lord I'm sorry that I have once again made myself more of a mess for you to help me with by trying to do it all as if I can be the one to make the difference in all that is going on in my life!

I can't!  Only you can Lord and once again I surrender it all to you.  Please forgive me for falling weak but I know in You is the help I seek, the hope that is to get me to what you will reveal to me.

I'm tired Lord, help me to be strong in You with your strength.  I love you Lord and I want nothing more than for you to lead me out of my troubled, stressful, over whelming wilderness that I have been lost in.  Thank you Lord for never leaving me and never giving up on me.

Isaiah 58:8-9
Then your salvation will come like the dawn, and your wounds will quickly heal.  Your godliness will lead you forward, and the glory of the Lord will protect you from behind.  then when you call, the Lord will answer "yes, I am here", he will quickly reply. 

The New Job

At the end of today I will have completed 3 weeks with my new job at Farmers Insurance!  I have enjoyed the training period in the office and feel pretty good with most everything that comes my way.  I still have a little ways to go with truly understanding the ins and out of the insurance world. I suspect things will make more sense when I'm licensed.  I'm still working on the online course and studying and taking practice tests.  The sooner I test, pass and get licensed the sooner I will make a little more money (and be able to understand this new world of insurance that I'm in)

God has been providing and blessings the girls and I these last few weeks.  I continue to cling to Him with guidance to the next step on this journey of being separated from my husband.  It has not been easy but I look for the joys and blessings everyday in each moment to be able to keep moving forward.