I think I'm finally on the road of recovery, but at a very slow pace. Things have improved and seem to get a little better with each day. I still have some discomfort and pain. I still get tired easily and at times feel yucky but things are moving forward. I had a CT scan today and it does show things less swollen, the ureter is not as swelled up in size as before and the kidney isn't as puffy either. All that is good....it's good to be better...maybe not a 100% but better! In the whole scheme of things, I'm feeling better compared to a few months ago and I have been on this road since the middle of October so I'm thankful.
I am frustrated at times because this slow pace does interfere with my day in and day out of life. I get tired at times in the middle of the day and want a nap. I can't go to Karlee's volley ball tournaments yet until I can sit all day long. There are times sitting too long, or standing too long, or laying on my back or ride side becomes painful. I haven't been working since October, and I'm not sure to what capacity I can go back on but I need to get back in the grind to some point.
I'm asking God for help with figuring out what to do about working and how the conversation might go when I go in to talk to them at work. I continue to ask for my family to be patient with me while I continue to heal and to give me peace in knowing that God is working and things will be fine in time.
I'm so thankful for the many blessings that have come out of all this that has been going on. God continues to show me how he can work in my messy life :)
My plan for now, will be to continue to rest and take things easy but still be productive and functioning in life and letting God handle all the rest.
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Friday, January 17, 2014
Trusting Him
Isaiah 26:3-4
You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, all whose thoughts are fixed on you! Trust in the Lord always, for the Lord God is the eternal Rock.
The last several months I have looked to that verse, trusting God in all this health stuff that I have been going through. There were times, I was so frustrated and discouraged that I kept asking why but no answer just a faint whisper of "trust me". I've come to realize more and more that there are trials and storms, situations....things that we go through that is not really completely for us and only our character building but for others around us. It's amazing to look back over the last few months and see how God was using my suffering in my loved ones lives. I'm almost to the end of this health journey, I think..... I will have to stent removed on Tuesday of next week. I look forward to getting back in my routine of work, kids and going to the gym.
God has been there for me with my health concerns, just as he has been and continues to be there for me with other areas of my life. My step son is in jail again....basically for violating his probation. I've been praying for his heart to give up to the Lord. Until whatever happens I know that God is right there in the middle of it all and no matter what there will be good found in the next step of consequence for Dillon.
God continues to be in the middle of my marriage. There have been baby steps towards each other. On the days I feel sad or discouraged I remember to trust in the Lord and look back in my journal and read how he has had a hand in my marriage over the past few months.
Trusting God is the best thing I think anyone could do. It is a battle at times living in this world and easy to fall into our own ways but its more rewarding and less stressful if we just remember to give it up and trust in our Lord God.
I'm so thankful that God is always there for me, all I have to do is fix my thoughts on Him!
You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, all whose thoughts are fixed on you! Trust in the Lord always, for the Lord God is the eternal Rock.
The last several months I have looked to that verse, trusting God in all this health stuff that I have been going through. There were times, I was so frustrated and discouraged that I kept asking why but no answer just a faint whisper of "trust me". I've come to realize more and more that there are trials and storms, situations....things that we go through that is not really completely for us and only our character building but for others around us. It's amazing to look back over the last few months and see how God was using my suffering in my loved ones lives. I'm almost to the end of this health journey, I think..... I will have to stent removed on Tuesday of next week. I look forward to getting back in my routine of work, kids and going to the gym.
God has been there for me with my health concerns, just as he has been and continues to be there for me with other areas of my life. My step son is in jail again....basically for violating his probation. I've been praying for his heart to give up to the Lord. Until whatever happens I know that God is right there in the middle of it all and no matter what there will be good found in the next step of consequence for Dillon.
God continues to be in the middle of my marriage. There have been baby steps towards each other. On the days I feel sad or discouraged I remember to trust in the Lord and look back in my journal and read how he has had a hand in my marriage over the past few months.
Trusting God is the best thing I think anyone could do. It is a battle at times living in this world and easy to fall into our own ways but its more rewarding and less stressful if we just remember to give it up and trust in our Lord God.
I'm so thankful that God is always there for me, all I have to do is fix my thoughts on Him!
Monday, January 6, 2014
New Year Back in Hospital
January 1st I found myself heading to the hospital with a fever and not feeling good. I didn't want to go back but I didn't like the way I was feeling and the pain was not pleasant.
While there they drained the fluid that they saw on the CT Scan. The used a needle and went through my back some how, I was heavily sedated so I don't remember anything. It turned out to be dried blood that they had to dilute to get out. Discovering that was not the source of the pain.
My white cells in my blood were high, so with that and the fever my body was saying an infection was going on. There was nothing huge, big and ugly shouting out saying here I am , its me, its me. (which is good)
With lots of fluids, antibiotics, and pain meds running through IVs I was making it through. The whole thing has been odd and not fit into a perfect cut and dry case.
The conclusion we think is that my body doesn't like the stent. The stent that was placed for ureter to stay open and heal. I know I was probably fighting off a few small infections but in the end the stent is not being liked by my body. It comes out on the 21st of this month. I think after it has been removed I feel so much better.
So I didn't leave on Saturday (1-4-14) feeling better but I left with a survival plan, medicines to get me through to the 21st.
Today as I write this post (1-6-14) I'm feeling not too bad. The pain is not as sharp, its dull and achy. I'm taking it easy still but I'm feeling better and able to function and do some things around the house.
While there they drained the fluid that they saw on the CT Scan. The used a needle and went through my back some how, I was heavily sedated so I don't remember anything. It turned out to be dried blood that they had to dilute to get out. Discovering that was not the source of the pain.
My white cells in my blood were high, so with that and the fever my body was saying an infection was going on. There was nothing huge, big and ugly shouting out saying here I am , its me, its me. (which is good)
With lots of fluids, antibiotics, and pain meds running through IVs I was making it through. The whole thing has been odd and not fit into a perfect cut and dry case.
The conclusion we think is that my body doesn't like the stent. The stent that was placed for ureter to stay open and heal. I know I was probably fighting off a few small infections but in the end the stent is not being liked by my body. It comes out on the 21st of this month. I think after it has been removed I feel so much better.
So I didn't leave on Saturday (1-4-14) feeling better but I left with a survival plan, medicines to get me through to the 21st.
Today as I write this post (1-6-14) I'm feeling not too bad. The pain is not as sharp, its dull and achy. I'm taking it easy still but I'm feeling better and able to function and do some things around the house.
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