I have finished 4 weeks at my new job but it was the first week of school with teacher and students. It went well. It started off a little rocky but by the end of the week is had greatly improved. I enjoy working with the young lady that is only part time and has been there almost a year. She is a college student and around my oldest's age. I find her easy to be around and talk to and we work well together. We make a good team, but she will be leaving in December. I'm not looking forward to that day.
I'm not sure what is going on with me or this job but its been a struggle to really settle in and feel like this is where I should be. The moment I question it is the moment that something catches my attention to show me that God had this planned for me and that God says this is the job for me and that this is where I need to be right now! I'm not sure about it but God knows best I just keep asking him to help me along the way. I wake up each day with a smile on a face and a happy cheerful attitude ready to learn and help and work and go with the day.
I think the job itself will be just fine and I will manage and become quite well at it. There just seems to be a disconnect and miscommunication at times and it makes it a little hard to follow along and know which end is up. Learning new people and the way they talk, and think can be a challenge too, and its hard to navigate around strong personalities. I've had that challenge at my last job but I managed to be alright for the most part of working there at the time.
I found that I felt like these last couple of weeks I have had to pull myself up and drag myself a little and say come on keep going its going to be fine, it takes time to adjust, don't give up. Don't get me wrong has improved and I know it will continue....I pray it will. God has made it clear to me that this is a good fit and this is where he has me so I will make it work and trust in him and wait to understand as he chooses to let me understand or at the very least shares blessings and joys along the way.
I bought a book of poems a while back, I told myself that I would try to read one poem a day. Sometimes I manage to do that and others I don't. Lately I found a few that I really enjoy and I've read them daily to help me start my day. The one below has been my go to recently.
THE LITTLE CARES
by Elizabeth Barrett Browning
The little cares that fretted me,
I lost them yesterday
Among the fields above the sea,
Among the winds at play;
Among the lowing of the herds,
The rustling of the trees,
Among the singing of the birds,
The humming of the bees.
The foolish fears of what may happen,
I cast them all away
Among the clover-scented grass,
Among the new-mown hay;
Among the husking of the corn,
Where drowsy poppies nod,
Where ill thoughts die and good are born
Out in the fields with God.
