Yesterday was a busy day at work. Its funny because I would have thought it was have been slow, but the moment that my boss mentioned that we might close early that was the end of it. It was a quote day! There were so many calling and coming by the office for an auto quote, renters or a travel trailer. It was good because it meant new business but it was busy because people wanted it then and now despite the holiday closure upon us. But my boss and I managed the day and it was over before we knew it!
Sara was at home waiting and waiting, thinking I would get off early. She and I decided that we would go to the Lights on the Lawn close to where we live on the golf course. I left work at 5:30 and picked up Sara's friend Marlee. Got home changed my cloths and asked Kyle one more time if he wanted to go with us. He didn't want to go. Living in the apartment complex that we do live in, it wasn't that far to the event so we decide to walk. It wasn't a bad walk, a little hot but it wasn't bad.
Soon the girls were off catching up with their friends that were there. I went to go find a friend that was doing the Thrive tent, and said hi to her. I like Shannon but she is very busy and we haven't really connected yet. I said hi and left to go explore. There were so many people there with so many little ones running around laughing and playing. It was great to see so many families. You don't realize how many people there are where you live until you see a huge group all at one event.
I was hungry so I headed to find some yummy street tacos and grabbed a beer and picked a spot to sit in the grass and eat. As I ate I people watched. I finished eating and began to walk around, then I found a chair and sat down for a bit, continuing my people watching. I wasn't thinking much about anything really, just taking in the view of all the people and watching them interact with their kids and enjoying hearing little ones laugh as they ran around. I ran into to people I knew and said hi for a moment. Then I saw Sara in the distance talking to some people and went to go see who they were. As I got closer I realized they were another friends parents and friends.
I got up to them and that was it my wandering ended! I was inviting to hang out with them and enjoy the firework show. They made my night, it was so nice not sitting off somewhere by myself while Sara sat with her friends.
I know its okay to be alone and I'm not trying to be a baby and act like I can't do anything on my own. Its just different and its where I'm at in this process of life, truly embracing being a single parent. Its also a time that I'm learning to be me again and to gain my confidence back too. Life really really is a process, a process of steps! I'm okay with it. I'm learning to sit and be still and do venture out embracing moments of alone time and with my kids and who knows....meeting new people and making new friends too!
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