Pizza, Hellos, & Birthdays

Daddy you have been heavy on my mind lately.  It could be the holiday spirit that is messing with my emotions more lately but, I miss you.  It almost seems that I miss you more and more since you have been gone.  Next week on Tuesday, the 8th it will be 2 months that you will have been gone but also it will be our little Sara Bear's birthday! She will be 13! Yes a teenager now!  

You would be calling to make sure I took some money out of the account to give to her for her birthday.  You would also tell me its been too long its time to treat everyone to pizza.  It was such a little thing but it made you happy knowing that you could treat us to pizza to enjoy.  

As I type this my tears are breaking through as I sit here quietly this morning while everyone is sleeping on this Saturday morning.

Is this how its going to be when ever the kids have a birthday, showing signs of growing that I will break down and miss you so much? I can't call you and hear your voice and hear you tell me to give everyone hugs for you.

Why when you lose someone is when you think of the little things that made that person so special?