Friday is over!!

Today is done!  It wasn't tooooooo bad.  At least on the emotional end of it all, it was the best in a long time.  Work was busy and I had a few difficult clients to deal with but I got through it.  I will be glad when Gene gets back in the office on Monday.

My girls and I ended up at the mall after I got off at 4:00.  We enjoyed some time there.  Karlee had brought Sara to work for me so that she could clean the office and get it all done with so we wouldn't have to worry about it all weekend.  She made plans with Marlee and I want to go to the Celtic Festival.

Got home and my son says mom I'm hungry whats for dinner.  Well maybe we shouldn't have but we did.....we went out and enjoyed dinner out tonight at a new pizza place.  It was fun and so yummy for our tummies!  It turned out to be Kyle, his best friend Matt, Karlee and I.  Sara stayed behind to get picked up to go to her friends house.  It was so nice. I enjoyed every moment of sitting at a table with teenagers and conversation.  I really love having my son around again......hey have I said how much I love my son being with me again! :)  I can't help it my heart is so full again.

We hadn't walked in the door when Karlee turns around and says "bye mom" and off she went.

On the way back from dinner I mentioned to Karlee how I'm okay with things now with Micah and I that I'm ready for the divorce, actually anxious.  Its like when I decide to go do something different with my hair I have to go do it quickly and can't wait until its done.  She smiled and said that I'm cute but then said thats good mom.  She was real happy to hear that I'm okay with it.

I had gone over to Micah's the other night with the papers that I downloaded off of the internet and wanted to finish them up with Micah.  He said isn't there just something we both can sign and call it done since we are not fighting over anything and its simple and all instead of starting a case of divorce.  I said I don't know this is all I could find.  I told him if he wanted to try to find something else then go ahead.  He said he'd look and let me know.  I told him firmly to do it quickly and let me know so that its ready to send off or get the process going by the end of the month.

I think this week was so hard because I have moved into the acceptance phase of the grieving process.  And yes I've been grieving the loss.  What ever "we" were it is a loss and a change in my life that I have to walk through.  I'm not saying that its easy or has been easy or will be easy but its a process and I think after the acceptance phase I can move into the healing phase.

I want to find me again.