F R U S T R A T I O N (part 1)

frus·tra·tion

 [ fru stráysh'n ]   

1. dissatisfaction: a feeling of disappointment, exasperation, or weariness caused by goals being thwarted or desires unsatisfied
2. frustrating of somebody or something: an act or instance of causing somebody or something to be dissatisfied or unfulfilled
3. something that thwarts: something that blocks, thwarts, and upsets somebody all at the same time

Synonyms: prevention, hindrance, blocking, foiling, defeat, obstruction, thwarting

 

Lately I have been beside myself in frustration.  I don't like being in this state of mind, it makes me miserable and everyone around me too.  I have been dissatisfied with a person, situation and then it didn't take long for the little things around me to be added to the list.  I felt stuck and didn't know how to get out of it.  The first definition describes the best for me.  

I look around me and I see so much that could be different in my loved ones lives and want nothing but good for them.  I can't make choices for them, and I can't live out the consequences for them.  I can hope that I have influence on them and can offer some guidance to them.  I can share my experiences with them and hope that it would help them not to make similar mistakes or down similar roads that I had traveled on.  But ultimately I can't change them and I can't control the situation!

The other night I stayed up late writing out my feelings, praying to God and looking up scripture.  I wanted out of my mind set of being frustrated.  I wanted help.

These were a few verses I found:

2 Cor 13:11 "Finally, brothers, rejoice.  Aim for restoration, comfort one another, agree with one another, in peace; and the God of love and peace will be with you."

James 3:18 "And a harvest of righteouness is sown in peace by those who make peace."

 

I had been struggling with such raw emotions that I really was blocking the holy spirit no matter how much I read and prayed that night.

I woke up the next morning ready for a new day, really wanting a better day without frustration.  I walked down stairs and saw my step-son and boom!  

 

These are my thoughts "Oh Lord this is gong to be harder than I thought. I'm so consumed with frustration and wanting to "fix" or control the situation that I'm just beside myself!  I want to scream to be heart, I want to stop my feet until I see results!"