I had really hoped that when I had walked down stairs to make a cup of coffee and start my new day that it was going to be easier than the day before....without any frustrations. Instead I walked down to see my step-son sleeping on the floor with something shiny sparkling on his ear. Yep he had stayed up late in the bathroom piercing both of his ears.
At first I smiled and looked at my husband and said hope they are stick-ons, they look funny. The tone in the room changed real quick. I think if I had been in a cartoon you would have seen yellow and orange sparks flying off of my head. All I could see was red.....a big flashing sign saying things like disrespect, breaking our house rules, who do you think you are.....etc you get the idea.
I knew we couldn't discuss it or figure things out right at that second, since Micah was on his way out the door to go to work. But it irritated me that Micah was calm and going on about his day. Dillon's "I don't care" attitude and "I know" stuff really fired me up! And the mere fact that no one can reach him and I have and need to let go to you Lord is so so hard. I cried out to the Lord for help.
By now I just couldn't function but things still needed to be done, my daughter had to dropped off somewhere so I had to get my day started some how. I called a friend that I knew could relate to what I was dealing with in regards to my step-son. We weren't out the door yet, I was really struggling with things, I asked my oldest daughter, Karlee to pray for me. I asked her to hold me and pray. She said okay and asked if she could just hold me and silently pray in her head for me, that was fine with me. I could feel the holy spirit between us in that moment, I began thanking the Lord.
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