First Week Down-New Job

 Today is Sunday, July 24th around 4:30 p.m. Ben has been smoking meat all day and we have been doing some meal prepping today for the week.  Since going back to work I don't have a ton of energy to want to come home and cook.  I hope we can keep up on doing a little meal planning and prepping on the weekends because I know it will help during the week.  It's been a very wet and rainy day today. I enjoyed talking to my mom this afternoon, in fact it helped a bunch.  She was able to put some of my feelings into words that I couldn't and didn't know they were there until she and I started to talk about last week.  

It was a good week, very busy and very tiring.  The week kicked my butt!  After being at home for so long and out of routine has taken its toll.  I like the people so far and the job itself, thats not the issue.  The thing is with me.  Its going to take time to get back in the game of working with my mind, and body.  I struggled some with both but I know it will take time to get back in the groove.  It's hard to explain and I will have to think about it more and try to put my thoughts here but for now I'll just be a little general.  I'm tired and not able to focus now.

I'm ready for a new week.  I will have to keep telling myself that I'm capable and I will adapt and I'll be alright.  I will have to share and not complain but I guess complain a tiny bit about the working area at the one location and express that in order to do the best job I can, I'll need to make a few adjustments to the desk area, chair and things like that.  One location has a better set up with the desk and chair.  I will have to go back and forth for now until they hire all the people they need to hire.  I'm going to try not to say much for a bit and then I will have to, I just don't like to say much about my fibromyalgia and arthritis in my knees, I don't want to play that role a victim and complainer.  Some I have seen take it way out there and let it run their life.  I've never done that with any thing in my life. I'm not going to start now, but I'm finding things becoming a little harder and less energy and that bothers me and I'm not sure how to deal with that but I guess I will take it one day at a time and keep moving forward and do the best that I can.