Tuesday Oct 6th 2015

Its the next day.  The day after we decided to take daddy off of the machines.

I find myself this morning searching for a quite spot.  I'm feeling mixed and the need to be close to you, Lord.  There is so much to decide and talk about but Lord the voices in the room that are doing the talking with comments and this and that makes me feel unsettled and I need you to help Lord, help me keep things in check.  Help me to honor you in all I do, say and think and react.

Our emotions are raw and fragile and with that could come with harsh bitter words and actions. As you know my family can be hard to communicate with and there are places in each of our lives that challenge us with each other.  Lord we don't know how to change that.  I know you are there and can change it.  I pray that you stay right in the middle of it all and do what you need to do for each of us.

Lord I do ask to help my brother.  He is lost and not sure what he needs but I know he needs you.
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I love the cool crisp air as I sit out here in the yard at my mom's house.  The birds are so musical, chirping and talking to other's. and yes there is a silly dog in the background barking next door but that is alright in the mix of it you are here Lord.  You are with me. The sun looks so pretty as it is trying to peak through the clouds.

I think the day and all it had in it yesterday is making itself known to me and my heart now in this quite moment as I sit here, tears run down my face.

Keep me strong in your word.

Psalm 61:1-4
O God listen to my cry!
Hear my prayer!
From the ends of the earth,
I will cry to you for help, for my heart is overwhelmed.
Lead me to the towering rock of safety, for
you are my safe refuge, a fortress where
my enemies cannot reach me.
Let me live forever in your
sanctuary, safe beneath the
Shelter of your wings.

2 Cor 1:3-7
All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ.  God is our merciful Father and the source of all comfort.  He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us.  For the more we suffer for Christ, the more God will shower us with his comfort through Christ.  Even when we are weighed down with troubles, it is for your comfort and salvation!  For when we ourselves are comforted, we will certainly comfort you.  then you can patiently endure the same things we suffer.  We are confident tha as you share in our sufferings, you will also share in the comfort God gives us.
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(thoughts of my brother while reading this)
Colo 3:12-17
Since God chose you to be the holy people he loves, you must clothe yourselves with tenderhearted mercy, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.  Make allowance for each others faults and forgive anyone who offends you. Remember, the Lord forgave you, so you must forgive other.  Above all, clothe yourselves with love, which binds us all together in perfect harmony.

Help me clothe myself with tenderhearted, mercy, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.  Help me to make allowance for each other's faults and to forgive .  Help me to war love--to wear love at all times Lord.

Bind us with love and all perfect harmony to be found, so we can live in peace, and be peaceful while we are living in this hard moment and to find joy and thankfulness in all.