THE UNKNOWN OF THE UNKNOWN

I went to my doctor's appointment this morning.  I started off feeling nervous and end with feeling frustrated.  The doctor doesn't think I have arthritis, which is good.  He knows there is something wrong but doesn't know what yet. Since I don't have insurance he decided to hold off on blood test and x-rays.  We'll try the wait and see approach and go from there.  I don't have enough of one type of symptom to be easily matched with some of the major things he put out there.  

So I don't have an answer as to why I hurt all the time and that is so very frustrating.  I wanted so badly to walk out of there with a step by step process of what was wrong and what to do and then it all be fixed and that would be that!  (but that is not even how life is so I can't expect other things to be that way)

He wants to see me in six weeks (so April 29th) and wants me to keep track of things that could add to the way I feel. To keep track of things I eat, stress, not sleeping, activities, and the weather.  He gave me something to take for the pain and discomfort hoping to ease some of the pain and discomfort.  If I have a day that I'm feeling really really bad like I had mentioned  last week then I'm suppose to go in immediately so he can look me over then when I feel so horrible in hopes of seeing something else at that time.

He tried to reassure me and tell me not to worry about it that at this point it wasn't life threatening and that we would figure it out in time.

I am happy and thankful that its not arthritis and not some of the other things he mentioned (which are really big words that I will not attempt to say)  There are so many things that can cause the things I feel and because of that its the unknown of the unknown.  Its difficult to just say okay and go on without wondering and going on about it.  I know it won't change anything by constantly thinking about it so I only have one choice in the matter.  To trust God. ( and to keep record of things and go on about my days until there is an answer of some sort.)

(Psalm 54:4) 4 Behold, God is my helper ; The Lord is the sustainer of my soul. 

(Psalm 37:3-5) 3 Trust in the LORD and do good ; Dwell in the land and cultivate faithfulness. 4 Delight yourself in the LORD ; And He will give you the desires of your heart. 5 Commit your way to the LORD, Trust also in Him, and He will do it.

(Phil 4:6-7) 6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. 7 And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. 

Psalm 139