Navigating Emotional Waves

 Reflections on Love and Healing:

As I drove to work this morning, the melodies of Maggie Rogers' new album filled the car, wrapping me in a cocoon of emotions I wasn't prepared for. Unexpectedly, the music unearthed a wave of melancholy, reminding me of the raw edges of a heart still on the path to healing.

The journey through heartbreak can be chaotic, catching us off guard with its unpredictable twists and turns. Today, as tears threatened to spill, I felt the familiar urge to reach out to Benjamin and unleash the words I've held back for so long. But amidst the turmoil, I remembered the advice I'd imparted to my children: "You don't hate; you just don't like." At that moment, I realized that what I truly disliked was the lingering ache of a fractured heart, not Benjamin himself.

Being single, especially after investing so much love and devotion, feels like an unjust sentence. I yearn for the warmth of companionship, for someone to share in the mundane details of my day, someone who sees and cherishes the essence of who I am. It's a sentiment echoed by many who find themselves navigating the aftermath of a broken relationship.

Yet, despite the waves of emotion threatening to engulf me, I refuse to let them define me. It's been nearly a year since the fracture, and though the wound still stings, I've learned to recognize the fleeting nature of these moments. Like a passing storm, they arrive unannounced, stirring up memories and emotions long buried. But with each wave, I've grown adept at weathering the storm, allowing myself to feel, and then releasing the emotions that threaten to overwhelm me.

As I stepped out of the car and into the embrace of a new day, I made a conscious choice to leave the emotional turbulence behind. With a deep breath, I shifted my focus to the tasks awaiting me, channeling my energy into the present moment. Though the journey through heartbreak may be fraught with challenges, it's also a testament to resilience and growth. As I continue to navigate the twists and turns of love and healing, I'm reminded that each step forward brings me closer to a place of peace and wholeness.