Sunday, January 31, 2016

A Dreary Looking Day

I don't know what it is about dreary looking days, there is something almost mysterious about them with a little sadness mixed in too.  Below is a picture of what it looks like right now just out my front door.  It looks cold and somber and feels that way to me inside emotionally.


As I look outside while the house is quite many thoughts come forward.....missing my dad, Micah and his mood and not working, what will this week bring, will I find a good job, my kids, only a short time before Dillon enters back into our lives, feeling a little alone despite all around me.....so many thoughts and feelings that are hard to find the words to describe but the Lord knows them.

Maybe this moment is a good moment to share with you what this session of the Ladies Bible Study is going to be on.

The first chapter was about "what if", it was an interesting chapter.  The author actually stressed me out during most it.  Just reading how anxious and worried she was since she was so itty bitty was stressful and sad.  Thinking about it now I can't help but wonder what someone from the outside would think about my "what ifs".  They are so real to us in the middle of it all but really it just takes a moment to gain a different perspective through another's eyes or through Christ.

I feel like my life is full of "what ifs" right now.  I'm trying real hard to give it all to the Lord and let Him help guide me through them and lead me where I need to go.  It's not easy, its a daily and moment to moment thing to do.

I pray that in every circumstance I will choose You Lord over hopelessness, and that I will know even to the core of my being that You are working on my behalf.  You have in store for my life.  I pray my days will be filled with gratitude as You turn the unlikely into the obvious.  Lord, I love You....unspeakably so.  Thank you.  (I changed up a prayer that the author had at the end of the chapter and made it my own)



As I was looking at my phone to upload the two pictures above I discovered someone had gotten a hold of my phone.....She is a bright corner of my life and I'm very thankful I have such a gift as my Sara Bear!





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