I have Him, but

I have Him, but is it alright to want more of him?

I stand in the door, leaning on the frame inside watching my dog in the yard run out and go potty.  I enjoyed the moment of the darkening sky turning to evening, with a coolness felt in the air.  I was tired and ready to relax.

As I leaned there lingering in the doorway I had a brief moment of longing.  I drifted into a dreamy state, envisioning my husband coming up from behind me, encircling his arms around me, leaning down, nuzzling his face next to mine and just pausing in time like that for a moment, then before parting he leaned in to whisper I love in my ear.  The moment of warmth and love.

Instead I shook my head back and forth like an etch a sketch and hurried at erasing that moment quickly clearing it for a change, a clean blank view of the reality of the moment.

The reality is that I have my Heavenly Father's arms encircled around me, holding me close while I feel a craving for what only He can work in and only He can fulfill my desire if it's His Will but in the mean time, knowing and trusting and leaning on Him...He is the one that is there with me and for me.

I have to be honest as busy as I stay and happy in the moment, and seeking joy in this crazy world with my family, I do long for the things that I don't have.....I do not stay there long, the Lord always lifts me back up to keep moving forward.