Even Though

Even though the weekend was full of fun, laughter, smiles, good music and yummy food there were a few down points in it.  That is called life, right?

The one thing that was great about having our friend Linda with us on Saturday was the conversations.  Our conversations were interesting, funny at times, but truth was spoken in them too and revelation that was good to discover.  Micah hasn't been going to church.  He would always use work as an excuse....he really had been working a lot, but it's not just work.  He mentioned bitterness, that he is struggling with not being right with God and dealing with bitterness that he can't go to church.  I had a feeling it was something like that but to hear him say it was a big deal and has given me some insight and understanding.  All I can really do and continue to do is to pray and keep giving it over to the Lord.  He will work in Micah's heart, he will help him through his struggles internally and bring him to a place of peace so that he can open himself to God again and build a stronger relationship with Him.

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My brother Jason and I over the years have gotten really lazy and bad about not calling each other and talking.  I really don't understand it but we won't try to figure it out right now.  I had a conversation with my mom last weekend and she had mentioned some concern for my brother and that she feared he had started drinking again.

Sunday, morning I checked what time it would be there in New Bedford MA and decided to call him. (he is three hours ahead of me)  I could tell he was very surprised and pleased that I had called.  Soon into our conversation I was fighting back the tears that wanted to break way while my heart felt like it collapsed for a moment.

He had started back drinking and he had been drinking for a long time now and he was miserable with himself and where he is at in his life.


Regret, hurt, bitterness, unsatisfied,resentment
Lord, help my brother find peace, and help me support him from a distance in the way you guide me.


Weekend

Micah-I'm dealing with bitterness I can't sit in church.  My heart isn't right."
That sums up why Micah hasn't been to church in over a year.  It helps give me a little insight and understanding.  Once again I turn it all over to the Lord.

God surrounds all that goes on in a moment, a day....a weekend.