The situation

The situation brought things into the light regarding areas in my marriage that need to change.  I have been married now for almost two years (Sept. 3rd) and the road to this point has been extremely bumpy.  It wasn't until recently that something really big came up in the middle of it all that really threw things off the road in such a big way that a friend of mine simply asked me "Are you a Christian?" by asking me that question it really put things into perspective.  If I'm of the world I could walk away and start over again.  If I'm a Christian then I was in it for the long haul no matter what.  At that point I wiped off my tears and took a deep breath and  I got down on my knees literally.  I cried out in pray like I have never done before to the Lord.

Since then its been a process that still involved some tears and concerns but I'm thankful for the people that were placed in my path.  These people didn't always say things that I wanted to hear but I listened then I processed it later.  I began to throw myself into my Bible and have been in Psalms ever since.

I had a wonderful enlightening conversation with my mom and step-dad who offered a perspective that I needed to hear and understand.

I have also been reading a book.  Its called Love Life for every married couple by Ed Wheat.  It has been awesome!  A change has taken place and I look forward everyday to doing my part.  To really doing all that I do for the glory of God.  Its not easy at times but in time I think it will get easier and its going to be a process that will take time but I'm ready.

The key I found in all this is that I had to submit, totally and completely submit to the Lord.  I had only one choice in the midst of what I was feeling and going through and that was to depend on the one being that was in control and knew the answers.

It hasn't been too long but a few things have changed and suspect that there will be more to come in time.  My pray life has changed.  My relationship with Christ has gotten closer.  My everyday thoughts and words and actions are coming more out of love and grace.  I find myself talking to the Lord as often as I can and thanking him and asking him to keep guiding me forward.

I can only work on my part with Christ while he works on my husband and our marriage and I wouldn't have it any other way (and trust me sadly enough I've tried and it does not I repeat does not work).

The situation that took place has brought on recovery to my marriage, closeness with Christ, restored Hope and a realization of unending love and grace from the Lord above.