At this moment

 It's almost 4:30 p.m. on Tuesday, Nov. 9th, its quite in the house since I'm the only one home right now.  Its cloudy and windy outside with a slight chill in the late afternoon air.  I'm feeling really tired and drained, it was a good day but I'm still tired.  As I was driving home today from work and as I sit here alone my heart is aching.  I am missing my kids so much right now at this moment!  I miss having all of them close.  I miss my girls being around to meet up with for shopping, lunch or hanging out.  I miss my son living at home, yes I mean it, then I was able to see him come and go and talk to him here and there.  This year there have been so many changes and its been a struggle at times, adjusting to my nest being empty.  I miss my kids! I miss them so much!!!  

I'm going to sit here in the dining room area with no light on, in the silence with only hearing my wind chimes and the breeze blowing outside for a moment.  A moment of quite.  I'm going to sit here and just feel, feel the my feelings and let them be whatever they are right now at this moment.  Then I'm going to get up from the table and begin my evening routine of cleaning up the kitchen, and preparing dinner for the evening, and then greeting Ben and Susan and continuing the evening until I go to bed to rest before starting a new day to see where the next moment will lead me.