Saturday morning started off with my silly Sara full of energy! She was in a mood to dance. I love her cheerfulness even when I'm not very cheery.
Later in the day we walked across the street to meet up with Wyatt (Micah's younger 1/2 brother) to go ice skating. Well they skated I just watched.
Saturday after I went over to get my mail. There were two pieces of mail. One was a letter of "no thanks" rejection from NAU in regards to a job I had applied for.
In the second item in the mail was a little package from my a sweet friend with Thirty One Gifts. In it was a sweet card of encouragement and a cute pair of socks. So I decided that it would represent to me a time to relax and get comfy and just chill....so I did. So thankful for her sweet thoughtful gift, it came just when I needed it.
Here I am sitting in my car across from the church that I haven't been to in a very very very very very lonnnnnng time! Feeling very emotional but got out of the car and headed in....
All my kids were scattered and busy doing their thing today so after church I decided to take myself out to lunch. I was so hungry and La Fonda's was very yummy! Feeling a little lonely sitting there eating, and going back to my place empty but getting through.
The rest of the week went alright. Had moments with friends over coffee. Time with my son while he stayed with me since his dad was out of town. Moments of feeling lonely at night missing Micah's company, while our silly love able dog brings his bone to be thrown and played with.
I can do things during the day to stay busy and I can do the things I need to do, but at the end of the day my heart aches for the closeness that I tried to have with him for 7 years. I miss our friendship too. I keep him at a distance right now because it hurts too much.....
Now another weekend is here.....
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