And Now....

So its been a week that Dillon has been out of the house.  We saw him the other night.  He actually came to the door and knocked then we let him in.  Oddly enough he came by for his skateboard...but he hugged both Micah and I and off he went.  He is going to sink or swim and its all on him so we will wait and see what happens.

Scott hadn't been feeling well at all most of last week.  It was awful to see him that way.  He seems to be over it for the most part now.  He looks better but still says he doesn't feel the greatest, it could be stress with all that he has going on in his head.  Yesterday he stressed to me that we need to sit down and plan things for what could be ahead so that things will be in place for the kids if anything should happen to him.  The whole process with all this is the hardest part....all the waiting for each step then the next....never simple but what can we do.  Soon he will have a Chest CT and a Colonsocopy.(sorry for the mis spell)  Hopefully sooner than that he will get the results of his latest blood work regarding the markings for cancer.

Well I finally had short heart to heart with my son.  I'm a little sad but I know its what he wants and is happy.  He officially says that his home is at his dads.....and that where I live with Micah and the girls is my home or our home but not his.  He wants to live with his dad full time.  He has been actually for the last month.  I miss seeing him often but I do see him at times, its not like I don't and I'm thankful that he is there with his dad.  He loves his dad, and I know it has meant a lot to Scott that he and Kyle have built a relationship.  He is 15, a young man-he needs his father. (in whatever capacity that Scott can give) (I mean that in a good way, I've learned to accept Scott and love him for who he is)

Sara moved some of her things into the boys room and claims it to be hers now.  To see the happiness on her face made the little hole I felt fill up some.  It will be less crowed in the girls room, now with them separated, even if it turns out to be temporary.  Sara understands and she said she would enjoy it while she can.

Things continue to set me back into reality with Micah and I and my heart aches but I lean on Christ and keep moving on.

It was great to talk to my little brother yesterday.  I miss him.  I hate the distance we have between us in all ways.  I pray that God can bring us closer.

And now.....the new week begins. (Spring Break this week with the kids)