Not In The Drivers Seat

Prior to the woman's retreat I posted that I felt like I was on auto pilot.  Since the retreat I feel like I'm sort of still on auto pilot or rather not in the drivers seat.  I'm not sure how to explain it other than I don't feel like I'm controlling things...which I'm really not.  God is.  God is in the drivers seat.  I think what I'm saying is that I have let him have the drivers seat.

I enjoyed the speaker at the retreat.  I have thought about her message but I haven't really sat down to ponder on all of it.  I have been a little stressed out and its like since the retreat I have started to stand back from it all. (the stress)  At first I started to get concerned that I was pulling away and hiding so to speak and avoiding or running from the things that have been causing me stress.  I didn't want to do that but I didn't want to keep it and let it run my life.  When I stress it affects so much of my life.  It affects the way I feel physically, emotionally, mentally which in turn is very exhausting and then that trickles down into my family.  I get impatient, and quite and put on a front when I'm around friends.  I'm not motivated to do much of anything.  I guess I get sort of depressed.  I haven't slept very well lately until last night.  Last night was a good night sleep. 

I've been talking to God and praying so I have kept Him in my loop as I have pushed back from the stress.  As I've done that lately I have been feeling more at peace.  Last night I wrote out a few prayers and verses on some index cards.  My plan is to memorize them but until then I read a few before going to sleep last night.  (Remember I said I had a good night sleep than I had lately)

Here are the verses I read:

You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, all whose thoughts are fixed on you!  Trust in the Lord always, for the Lord God is the eternal Rock.  Isaiah 26:3-4

But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.  They will soar high on wings like eagles.  They will run and not grow weary.  They will walk and not faint.  Isaiah 40:31

See the kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and He will give you everything you need.  Matthew 6:33

Here is the prayer I prayed:

Heavenly Father, help me reduce the stress in my life that robs my vitality and saps my strength.  Show me how to work with more wisdom instead of working in ways that foolishly waste my strength.  Fill me with your peace and rest so that I may be renewed by your presence and power.  Thank you for giving me the peace that passes all understanding.  Amen

By letting go of the drivers seat I have let go of my worries, concerns and stresses to God.  So I'm not avoiding life I'm just letting Him figure it out for me.

The Lord gives his people strength.  The Lord blesses them with peace.  Psalm 29:11