Changes around the corner

There are changes around the corner.  I know this because I have felt them come on now for awhile.   What will they mean, I'm not sure yet but God is there and in charge.  My mind has been racing lately with all the unknown.  I try to keep myself busy but its hard.  I lose energy and motivation.  Yesterday I couldn't help but focus on how much my whole body hurt that I was almost in tears, curled up in a ball laying in the middle of the bed.  My husband was sitting in front of me on his computer, I was quite about how I was feeling. Today wasn't much better.  I found myself falling into my worries and the frustration of how I felt that  and decided to take a nap.  I was in a funky mood for most of the day.  My husband knew I was in a mood and tried to make me laugh.  I felt better after my nap.  Just typing this entry to my blog is uncomfortable and painful at times.   Everywhere I'm connected I ache.  All of my joints.  My knee clicks loudly as I walk up and down the stairs. My family knows when mom is coming up the stairs they can hear my knee.  Some moments the pain is achy and uncomfortable and others it hurts and is bothersome.  I don't feel good after I eat.  I'm really tired and dragging along.  I don't want to do much.  Its tender to touch around my joints. I'm stiff in the morning and most of the day especially if I sit too long in one position. I wasn't comfortable in church on Sunday and that irritated me.   All I know is that I feel what I feel all day long from morning to night, day in and day out never ceasing.  Its frustrating because it affects everything I do no matter what it is, I just want it to go away.  I think this is one change that is going on that will last and I will have to change with it.  But I won't change without God's help, I'm not alone and there are people with far worse changes to work thru than me.  I continue to take comfort in knowing Jesus.  I will continue to keep myself as busy as I can this week until my appointment next week.