Insights

Yesterday I wrote about the job opportunity that didn't happen for me after all.  I began to think about it and looked at my post.  If you look back at it there are a few words in the first paragraph that are italicized.  The words were:  fall back, make husband happy, benefits and changes.

When I look at the words falling back that offers comfort like a security blanket instead of growing or being challenged.  The words make my husband happy, well that seems like I've forgotten who I'm suppose to make happy and praise so that good will come out of it all.  God

Benefits, that would make life easier to have access to insurance, improved fiances etc. well that only looks like I don't trust who is providing for my family and I and is the one always there taking care of our needs as needed (despite our timing) God

And the word changes brought along all kind of worries.  Worries about changes that would be worked out through faith and trust of my Lord and Savior.   I came up with so many worries and so many changes and questions of how would this work or what about this and that?  It didn't bring much peace to me.

But through it all I did grow closer to God in my quite time.  My quite time seemed more productive, more centered around God.  My prayers were more often.  I was reminded that what we may want or not want is not up to us but up to Him.  He has the plan and He will work all the details despite our own understanding.