Started in 2010 during a difficult season, this blog became a place to process pain, hold onto faith, and reach out to anyone feeling alone. Through time, art, motherhood, and life’s lessons, I’ve grown stronger and learned to meet each season with grace. Today I write from a place of healing—sharing reflections, creativity, and quiet encouragement for living with resilience, hope, and a deeper trust in God.
Monday, July 12, 2021
July Visit to Mom's
A Job A Job!!!
I'm a little behind in sharing the really great news along with a mix of other news too! I had a zoom interview on June 30th with a couple of ladies that work for a charter school. They were looking to fill two positions at two different schools in the offices. The interview went great! Then it went to the waiting period, they said they wanted to make a decision soon since they were both going vacation.
Friday on July 2nd I went to town to go to Safeway and meet Scott in the parking lot of Safeway to get a jar of homemade salsa that he had made. While waiting on him I sat in the car checking my email. I came across an email from the ladies that I interviewed with on Wed. asking for references and it expressed to do it as quickly as possible because they were moving onto the next phase of the interview process.
So I sat there looking around for something to write with and to write on. I found a small receipt from the ATM, I dug out a pen from the bottom of my purse. I looked in my phone for all the info to send on four people. One I worked with, one that has known me since I've lived here in AZ, one that I live with, and my ex-manager. I responded to the email as quickly as I could and sent it off then went on about the rest of my morning.
I was driving home from town and I started to pray/talk out loud to God. I do that sometimes, anyways I was just saying out loud how I think that the job at the school would be a great fit for me. I carried on for a few a minutes and then continued my way home.
I'd been home for a few hours when my phone rang around 1:00 p.m., I saw that the number came from one of the ladies that I interviewed with from the school. My heart jumped and then I took a deep breathe and answered the call.
I was almost in tears with so much joy and excitement going on inside of me after I heard her offer me the job! I accepted the job and was told the time and date to start. As soon as I got off the phone I was jumping up and down and running around the house laughing and crying at the same time, shouting out thank you Lord thank you! I called my mom and then texted my kids and called Susan (Ben's mom). I didn't tell Ben until he got home I didn't want to do it on the phone.
Susan actually knew before me because she ended up knowing one of the ladies. She had worked with her at the bank a long time ago.
I was on cloud nine the rest of the day and weekend. It felt so good to know that I finally had job to go to.
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Monday morning on July 5th I checked my unemployment bank account on the app on my phone and the money wasn't showing that it hit yet. I found it odd because when I do my claim on Sunday it will show on Monday. I decided to look it up on the main site from my computer. I discovered that my I had exhausted my benefits. Well that put me into a spin of emotions! What was I suppose to do to pay my bills until I started my new job? I started to freak out some and then I took a deep breathe and sat down at my table and just sat still for a little while.
I took a deep breathe and composed an email to send to the guy that handles my last little bit of my investment money. I sent the email and waited maybe an hour and then I couldn't wait any longer I needed to figure this out and could not wait. I called and left a message. An hour after that he called and then we made a plan. I'm so happy and relieved that I reached out. I will only have to take a small amount out and pay off 5 credit cards to gain a little breathing room. Then we discussed taking a slightly bigger chuck of money into a different account to try to increase my money.
I find myself feeling alright and knowing that things will be just fine. I'm also feeling like a huge weight has been lifted off of me between the stress of looking for a job, finding one, then losing benefits.....I was so weighed down. Its really nice not having to look for a job daily.
Friday, July 9, 2021
July 5th 2021
Thursday, July 8, 2021
Fourth of July 2021
Sunday, the 4th of July was relaxing and fun. Ben and I played corn hole on and off all day from about 10:30 a.m. until the early evening. Susan joined us for awhile too and that was nice. What made the day even better was when Sara got here in the evening. She and Abby left after Sara got off work. They left on Tuesday evening. It was a good visit and still so hard to let her go back to her new home in Phoenix.
July 3, 2021
Wednesday, July 7, 2021
First day of July
I decided to finally go to Violas by myself. It sounds like no big deal and easy but it was for me. In fact it took courage to go by myself. Oh Violas is a cool outdoor gardening/flower place! I have had a couple of gift certificates from my birthday that I've been wanting to use. The last couple of years Ben, Susan and I have gone together to go plant/flower shopping. We have had fun and enjoyed the experience of going together. This years has been so busy and it has not really had us all together and the its already the beginning of July so I wanted to get some flowers and plants planted soon.
I decided the other morning that I was going to get up and go by myself. Its a big deal for me for a couple of reason and some might think they are silly but it is what it is for me. The first being that I would go by myself, to venture out doing something without any one. I have found over the years that I don't think I can for some reason that I can go out and about like buying flowers without any help. I think its because I enjoy going with others. Now with all the kids out of the house it seems to make me want to stay home and dwell on that fact a little. It also says that I'm alone, well not really alone but....you know now that I'm trying to put it all in words its hard and I'm not sure it makes sense.
The second reason, and again you will think its silly, is that to get there I have to navigate two turnabouts in the road. I conquered that fear the day I went and was proud of myself that I didn't stress or freak out about entering it and then coming out where I needed to go just fine. I find them confusing and stressful mostly. Its a silly fear but I've always had issues with them. I have gotten better at times.
Once I got there to Violas, I enjoyed the idea of really taking a long slow stroll around the whole area before I went and got a cart to start picking out what I wanted to get. I ended up focusing on plants that will grow well in the shade with very limited sun. We had one side of the planters that are in the shade and have failed with other plants in the passed.
I picked out my plants and headed home to plant them. It was a great day to plant with the sky being cloudy and a little cool with a light rain at times. I hope they will work out, they are suppose to come back next year so we shall see.
Wrapping up the end of June
As you can see with the pictures below that I spent the last part of June enjoying a few of my favorite things.
