My weekend

After a busy week I was ready for the weekend more than ever.  I had made up my mind that I wasn't going to do much of anything.  Saturday I did some cleaning around the house.  Micah worked next door.  The kids were scattered with friends.  I did get to the point in my day that I walked around not doing much of anything.  I didn't want to go any where, I didn't want to read or be on the computer.  I simply wanted to be.  But as the day went on I sort of got in a funk and a little moody, at this point I wanted to dig a hole and bury myself in it until the next day at least. My family were real troopers in dealing with me in this frame of mind.

Sunday came along and it was beautiful outside.  Micah had already left for early service since he's in the choir and they were going to sing at both services.  So I was left with getting the kids up and out the door to church. I was pleasantly blessed with a great morning start with the kids.  We went to church and enjoyed our morning.  After church we came home to eat lunch and get ready to go to Cameron so they boys could ride their dirt bikes (while we girls sat in the truck watching and waiting until they had their fill of riding).  The best part for us to hold out for is the food.  We also end our fun at Cameron with going to the trading post to eat Navajo Tacos. 

After we got home I took my card out of my camera to upload the pictures that I took throughout the weekend and as they were uploading I realized that I was blessed with such a wonderful weekend.  I enjoyed my family and the beautiful scenery around me........so I think I did accomplish the "simply being" this weekend after all.

My beautiful Girls

I saw this little bouquet as soon as I walked into church this morning and it would just a big smile on my face that I just had to have it.   My husband saw me with it and rolled his eyes and smiled and said that saw them but didn't know I'd want them.  I told him how pretty they were and that they would make a perfect photo subject.

Flagstaff Sunset

Karlee decided to try riding again (its her 2nd time)

I'm so proud of Kyle.  He had a scare the last time he rode and was hesitant about riding again but he got on and soon found himself comfortable again and enjoying it.  Now he caught the "dirt bike  fever" again and wants to go again soon.

Micah.  The biggest kid of all on his dirt bike!

Dillon enjoys riding a lot too.

the sky out in Cameron

in Cameron

Our day is done in Cameron

Give up & Let go

Lately its been hard to communicate with my step-son and on some level with my oldest daughter too, it depends on the day.  They are both growing and changing so quickly.  They don't know how to control their tempers, reactions and emotions. (and sadly enough at times neither do I)

I want so many  good things  for them but I can't do it for them or give it to them.  I'm not in control of that. God has a plan for each of them that I don't know about or would understand either.  It's hard to accept that because that means I have to Let go & Let God.

Let God set up the stage for them as he helps me set out a few choices for them and then let go--walk back and let them take, pick, make their decision and deal with what comes with it. God knows what they will pick and there is great comfort in knowing that too.  He will be ready for them and what becomes of the decision made.

I have to continue practicing the concept of Letting go & Letting God.  The very few times  I have done this has been hard but the results have turned out better than what I would have anticipated.  There is so much importance on Letting Go and Letting God than I realized.  (especially here lately with teenagers in the house)

I have gotten better at "slow to anger" but at times I feel so defeated.  I just want to "give up" & "stop caring" but I can't and won't.  Shortly after the times I go off on the anger path I have found my cooling off and stepping back, reflecting, evaluating time has shortened.  I look inwardly to myself with my mistakes and then at the rest of what took place.  I ask for forgiveness quickly afterwards.

I feel shameful for my behavior during my uncontrollable outbursts. I'm learning to say what I feel short and calmly then walk away for them to reflect. 

I cool down and let it drop and move on to the next moment working at not haning on to the moment before.  It's gone and in the past, a new moment is on its way.

I have shown love by hugging and saying I love you despite our differences at times.  Its hard at times but in the end very rewarding.

I may start off emotional and angry but soon I calm down and find peace in the moment afterward.  I know God is working in me and does not give up on me.  He pulls me through to the next moment where I need to be, saying what I needs to be said with His words. Doing the actions that praises and please Him in His guiding, powerful, peaceful, forgiving, loving light.  Full of His grace I journey in the life in this world until I can be beside him. Comforting, soothing, peaceful, loving, sweet all knowing Jesus is there in the time of need, thank you so very much.

September

Fall is already making its appearance slowly in the morning and in the evening. (cool then warm then cool again) have to dress in layers

I’ve been married a year

Kids are back in school

Ladies Bible Study has begun again

I have a new role….MOPPET Coordinator

I have  a daughter that will be celebrating her 13^th birthday

September is almost over…..

What will next month bring?

My Letter to my Husband

Dear Micah,

During this past year we have had our ups and downs but through it all we have ended up right back in each other’s arms holding each other.  I have learned a few things that I work on daily some things are easier than others.

I’ve learned the process of when to keep my mouth shut..

When to give you space and walk away

Better ways to communicate with you

Ways to respect you

To think before I speak

My wish for our next year is to always go back to the center with Christ-so that we can go back to the love, peace, kindness, giving and forgiving place that the two of us need to be together.

I love you

I look forward to all that God has planned for us next year, all the ups and downs.

Happy Anniversary

Love Trina

One Year Blessing

“There is no mistaking love.  You feel it in your heart.  It is the common fiber of life, the flame of that heats our soul, energizes our spirit and supplies passion to our lives.  It is our connection to God and to each other.”  Elizabeth Kuber-Ross

Eccl 4:9-10

Two are better than one because they have a good reward for their efforts.  For if either falls, his companion can lift him up; but pity the one who falls without another to lift him up.

1 Peter 4:8

Above all, keep your love for one another at full strength, since love covers a multitude of sins.

Dear Jesus,

A year ago on this day you joined my husband and I in marriage and united us as one.  I want to express my thankfulness to you for bringing us together.  Yes there have been times that we shook our heads and wondered why and if things were really going to work out.  You haven’t made things easy but on the other side of each obstacle there were rewards.  Rewards that have made great changes and revelations in our marriage.

You also worked in my heart which has caused growth within me.  During this past year of blessings you have worked with me on forgiveness, leaving the past in the past, being more giving, letting go and trusting you, opening the door for you to be part of the daily little things each and every day.

You have helped me to speak when I should or to keep my mouth shut. (I think that will be an ongoing thing…at least for a while J)

Thank you Jesus I look forward to the next year with the three of us….you, Micah & I.  Happy Anniversary

A Letter to God

Dear God,


You are powerful and amazing.  You are all knowing  I'm so thankful that you have a plan for my life.  If I had to create the plan all by myself I would be a wreck.  I also would have given up if things didn't go as planned.  I would have chosen for certain things to be in the plan and ignore others therefore missing hidden opportunities and blessings. 


But since I didn't create my plan I can't give up on it.  I have to take what lays in my path and learn from the things that occur on my path.  I"m comforted knowing I'm never alone.  I'm relaxed knowing that if my heart is open to you I will be lead in the direction I need to take.  My faith continues to grow in you as I live each day despite the unknown not always understanding what you place before me but having the faith to let go and give it to you.


Thank you,
Always yours Katrina

Finally...

Written Aug 8

Shortly after the kids and I had gotten back from El Paso at the end of July.  Micah had sent me a text while I was registering Karlee for school.  It simply stated that he had booked a spot from Aug 16-22.  I knew it had to do with camping since we had talked some about it but let it drop.  I sent a reply back asking where.  He sends back CA. I soon began to smile from the inside out with a huge beaming smile for all to wonder about.  In fact I began to squeal and jump with excitement in the hall way of the school while Karlee was trying to open her locker.  Soon we were both jumping up and down with excitement.  From that moment on all I could think about was finally getting the chance to see the ocean.  I've wanted to for so long and now the whole idea of it was making me very anxious.  I couldn't wait to see the ocean, smell it, feel the cool crisp of it and then surround my toes with sand and soak up some sun ray.

Written Aug 18th

I'm sitting here watching the waves crash in on the shore.  It is so amazing!  I love watching the wave roll in and then how the sand on the shore shifts in with the water after the wave hits. We have been here in Malibu since Monday afternoon and today is Wed. morning.  The kids are having so much fun.  I'm so happy they have a chance to experience the ocean now in this point in their lives.

 Aug 24, 2010

I don't think she likes how the water taste. 

Kyle dragging out his seaweed monster from the ocean

Wow! Vacation was awesome but you know they say that you are suppose to relax during vacation.  The relaxing comes in after you have returned from vacation.  Our days were full from the moment we rose in the morning until we put our heads down to catch some shut eye.   Each moment was something to cherish and treasure.  Watching the kid's faces as they saw the ocean from a distance to the moment they stepped into the ocean.  Each one of them enjoyed playing and jumping in the waves, running in the warm sand and warming up in the sun after the cold water had chilled them to the bone.  Even the not so good moments....listening to them moan and groan about being hungry after they roller bladed down to Venice Beach to browse around knowing that our lunch was back in the truck at Santa Monica Pier.  Or the few moments that they were cranky to each other since they were so tired.  But it was VACATION!  I'm thankful that it all went so well, our travel was safe and everyone had fun.

I have to go for now and get dinner going so I will have to post some more pictures of our vacation later.

The Girls first time in the ocean

Boy's getting ready to try Boogie Boarding

the boy's love their sister...how sweet

Sara loves the pink and purple house in Malibu