My drive into work

The last couple of days of this past week I purposely left early, earlier than I would need to head into town to go to work.  This picture does not do it justice but as I drove into work to view the beauty in the sky I couldn't help but feel a deep gratefulness for everything and everyone in my life.

The sky with all the pretty colors was amazing, I had to remind myself that I was driving so I would stop looking up and out into the sky while driving. I went through so many deep emotions while driving to work with the sky so beautiful from sadness to peacefulness.  I did feel like God had me held close to him and that was a huge comforting feeling.  Especially when you feel so many things that you can not fix or control but have to pray and trust in.

 

A moment of silence

 Its 6:15 a.m. Wed morning, Nov. 11th and I find myself sitting at my table again with no one else home but me.  As I'm drinking my coffee a thought crosses my mind.  Yesterday I was tired and missing my kids a ton.  In the silence that had surrounded me I felt lonely.  This morning sitting here in the silence I feel calm and peaceful, embracing the moment of silence before heading off to work to start my day.  Its interesting how a simple moment of silence can either be so much or not be and can make you feel one way and then another in the next moment.  We shall see where this moment will carry me as the day gets going.

At this moment

 It's almost 4:30 p.m. on Tuesday, Nov. 9th, its quite in the house since I'm the only one home right now.  Its cloudy and windy outside with a slight chill in the late afternoon air.  I'm feeling really tired and drained, it was a good day but I'm still tired.  As I was driving home today from work and as I sit here alone my heart is aching.  I am missing my kids so much right now at this moment!  I miss having all of them close.  I miss my girls being around to meet up with for shopping, lunch or hanging out.  I miss my son living at home, yes I mean it, then I was able to see him come and go and talk to him here and there.  This year there have been so many changes and its been a struggle at times, adjusting to my nest being empty.  I miss my kids! I miss them so much!!!  

I'm going to sit here in the dining room area with no light on, in the silence with only hearing my wind chimes and the breeze blowing outside for a moment.  A moment of quite.  I'm going to sit here and just feel, feel the my feelings and let them be whatever they are right now at this moment.  Then I'm going to get up from the table and begin my evening routine of cleaning up the kitchen, and preparing dinner for the evening, and then greeting Ben and Susan and continuing the evening until I go to bed to rest before starting a new day to see where the next moment will lead me.