Today I sit here at my table at home.  The house is quite. Sara is still sleeping, she doesn't have to go into work until 1:00 p.m. Ben and Susan are at work.  I was terminated with my job on Dec. 21st.  I sit here unemployed.  I don't like the feeling at all, its scary and nerve racking actually.  I did file for unemployment and I believe that will start on Monday.  I decided to look up my blog that I wrote on for so many years.  Last year in January on the 4th I said good-bye to all and turned it off from the world to view.  I have not written on it since that day.  I have missed it at times but not really either.  But for whatever reason I viewed it today and read my last post.  Apparently I needed to read my words from a year ago, they are what I needed today.  Its funny how that works, well not really, its a God thing!  So grateful that I don't try to do life without him. My fingers and hands hurt more when I write in my journal, I can't write as long as I'd like to at times.  I may start writing on my blog again so I can type out my thoughts.  I have found out that I have developed osteoarthritis in my knees and I'm sure in my hands as well.   I know I will continue to keep my written journal but maybe I will come back here at times.