Seasons of Change

I'm not sure if I really have a favorite season.  There is something I enjoy with each season.  I love the colors of Fall.  I enjoy watching the trees and their leaves change from a deep green to many colors of yellow, brown, red and orange.  Each season brings changes around us and also in us.  I've been sitting here for almost 2 hours now looking back on my blog and picking all of the Octobers to read and look over.  It amazes me how much of my life has changed and the ups and downs that have been in my life just in the season of Fall.  My life is different from last year and then way different 3 years ago.  Each year I've gotten older, and my relationship with the Lord has grown and there have been so many blessings and joys with each new season. 

Looking back seems like forever when I was living the life that I had lived.  I love seeing how much of God's hands were in my life.  It continues to reinforce the need from all parts of me, my body, mind and soul that I can not do this life without Him.

I have thinking about my story, and what seasons were an important part in who I am today.  In the bible study that I've been going to on Tuesday evenings its about building community.  We are at the section that we all will be sharing our stories.  The one leading the study went first, I'm not sure who will go next.  We are a very small group, only six of us. 

I'm not going to plan on what I'm going to say, I'm not even going to write it down.  God will lead me and have me share what I need to share.  But I do want to look back at where I've come along with a little bit of a time line, just to refresh my mind some, which is what I've been doing this evening with my blog.  Its been nice to see how much more joy is in my life now compared to other moments in my past.  Its all because of God.  He didn't give up on me and I didn't give up on Him.  I love the Lord and I'm so grateful for all the ups and downs in my life, they were not always easy and there was pain and tears at times with a few seasons of hopeless but there was always something to be thankful for and to celebrate when you didn't see it at first.

Well its getting late and I should probably go to bed now.  I can sleep in some tomorrow and Friday since Sara is out on Fall break from school.  I'm not sure where my thoughts are right now, maybe still reflecting on where I've been for a little longer before I jump back to where I am right now in this moment.  And in this moment its a moment of peace, and gratefulness. 

Goodnight