To write or not?

Apparently I have started about 8 different posts over these last couple of months and all of them are saved as drafts.  I found that interesting and it caught my attention.

Its almost as if I'm trying to decide to "write or not" or to "share or not".  I do know that I've been in a funk lately and I've been so tired that when I come home I don't even want to think, talk or do much other than find something on Netflix to watch and then go to bed and start the next day.

It's  not like there have been bad times lately, well maybe frustrating, discouraging and annoying times mixed in with joys and blessings but that is just life.

I have been working hard every morning at having time with the Lord and his word.  He is my foundation and maybe at times I forget that, I know I have when I feel the way I do at times because its so draining and if I was truly leaning on Him, my foundation then I wouldn't feel as I have and be so drained in all sense of the word.

I do know that just this simple little post expressing how stressed I've been or how I'm not writing has helped, making me know that I have ignored a part of me.  A part that works things out in expressing her thoughts on paper in a journal or here on this blog.  I need to get out of my head and start again here with the little things.

I started this blog a long time ago as a way to help me deal with all the moments in this life, big and small in hopes that it helped others to not feel alone and that we all can gain insight from others joys, blessings, struggles, obstacles and crisis.  I know that this may not affect you but it has affected me.

Back to sharing I go........

Lately I've been stressed out thinking about my job.  My job in the insurance world.
I've been a little frustrated with all my kids and how they help or don't help me around around our home.
I've struggled with my son and his silence and not participating in the little moments of our family.

On the other side of things I'm thankful that my oldest daughter lives here even though her moods can be annoying and hard to be around too.  But I love her being here.  She has become my support and at times I know I shouldn't lean so much on her, she is young and starting out in her life but she is there for me and her sister and brother (even if he doesn't see it)

My Thirty One Gifts Biz has taken a rise lately!  Have had some great orders and parties!  Yeah parties!  Its been fun getting back into it and sharing the products with others.

For now those are the "ups" of things to share real quick.  I've got to eat something and get ready to head out the door to work.

It feels good to sit here and clear my mind......