I feel like such a fool about last night thinking about him and us over steak! After today I'm going to have a hard time not playing in my head some of the statements he said today over and and over.
the grill from the top balcony at Micah's
Okay let me back up some....
so last night I sent him a message asking if he would bring the grill over today at some point, and yes in my weakness last night even expressed that I missed him and his steaks. He did not read the message until this morning at 7:10 am! He didn't respond at all. So late afternoon today I sent a message asking him if he got my message from last night and when will he be bringing the grill by. He responded and said that he would try on his way out to the movies.
I was laying down looking over my notes when from my window I see him walk by with the grill, he put it down and began walking away. I walked outside and said thank you then I said hey what about the tank. He said when he got it from the lady years ago when he first bought it he didn't buy it with a tank. I said well okay but why can't I have one of the other tanks that you have. (I know he has three) He said no I don't have an extra one and you will have to get your own.
He looked over the grill and discovered a piece on it was broken and said for me not use it until I fixed it. I said really! Well how am I going to do that!? He said okay he would take it and fix it for me. (gee thanks buddy) He came in to wash his hands after messing with the grill. I asked him why does he always ignore me lately. He said because he has nothing to say. Oh nice!
I asked him well what about signing the papers. He said he didn't understand what the hurry was we are already living separately, its just a piece of paper. I said what about if you did something crazy with money and we are married and then I would be partly responsible. He said no that wouldn't happen because you are not on anything other than the bank account. I said oh thats right just another "normal" part of our marriage, you kept everything separated. I asked if he was going to take me off of the bank account. He said he wasn't going to worry about it right now. I said well okay its not like I have ever really touched it.
I was shocked by now really at how he was viewing all this. I told him that I thought it was nice that he wasn't having a hard time with any of this but that it was hard for me and I needed this closure. I said well its not like things are going to change between us so we need to meet up and sign the papers. He said if he got rained out one day next week that he would meet me to sign. I said well okay just to call before he headed over so I could make sure the lady would there.
He turned to leave and then I asked one last time "do you ever think about me? Miss me?" Sometimes. Then he started walking towards his truck and I turned and walked into my apartment.
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