Janes Call

(post from the other day just didn't publish it yet)

I needed Jane's call and I'm so thankful for it.  Very motivating, words spoken in truth and love.  I am a little depressed and finding it hard to make a move.  I do need to find a job of some sort to have money coming in until the door opens to a bigger a better and job.  I will feel better once I step out into a temporary phase and not be surrounded by so many things of mine and Micah's that isn't it anymore.  Surround myself with a way to walk forward and not just stay stuck and not move forward or back....just stuck.

I feel so much anxiety from not having money coming in and all the What ifs are driving me crazy.....

Micah has been and continues to be so passive....

I know God will provide.  He always does.  I just have to trust.

Being in this house with all there is to remind me of what we don't have together and that I've tried to make happen doesn't help any.  I can be sad in a place that doesn't have a past so that I can move from it and not go back too...

After talking to Jane I called Nancy to find out how soon we can move our stuff over.  I was all ready to start now.....but she returned my call and it won't be until next week sometime...gotta hold out a little longer and hold on to the Lord and his will in all this.