Life keeps happening.....

Karlee was accepted to NAU.  I know it may or may not be a big a deal but it represents a new stage in my life to work through.  Its been hard enough that she is 18 and that changes things but the thought of her really growing up and going to college.  I didn't go to college.  I did 2 years of basics at a Community College in El Paso TX.  I think it will be awesome for my kids to go if that is what they want to do.

She is applying for different scholarships and at the other colleges in Arizona, but she has continued to say that she'd like to stay close by to me.  That makes my heart very happy. But if that doesn't work out I know things will still be alright and I will be happy with a little ache inside too....but that is where God will have to come in and help me with that :)

This is a Thirty One bag, yep and it has tools!  My husband's tools, he is ready for the next job lol.  Its funny when my husband starts wanting his own Thirty One bags and great at the same time! :)

Yesterday was Saturday (November 14th) and I didn't do much most of the day.  I was in a funk and sort of depressed in all that I did do.  I did work some for Jane, I did go to two craft fairs but when all was said and done I went home and laid on the coach, sleeping some and my dog, Bosco joined me too.  I didn't plan on going anywhere the rest of day.  I wasn't going to cool dinner.  I wasn't going to do much except lay on the couch and watch some Netflix and not do any serious thinking.  And that is what I did!  Micah came home from the NAU game and fried up some chicken wings and watched Netflix with me.

I hate this sunken feeling I feel inside and its not all related to my dad.  Its so many other things, some normal everyday things in life that all seem to be more amplified right now.

Today is a new day and tomorrow is another new day, I'm not saying things will be perfect and better and so happy but I'm saying its okay to take the time to feel and be the way I am right now as long as I don't lose myself in it all and keep holding God's hand as he leads me onto to the next new moment.  There will be a day that I won't feel the things I do and if I do I won't want to hide, I will be able to stand a little more on my own feet with God just beside me instead of holding me.