I will share the story of my last couple of weeks soon....but until I'm ready to do that life must go on while I process and learn to live a new normal with a huge gap in my life without my daddy in it.
Today I woke up at 8:00 and grabbed my phone and texted my neighbor, who has become such a good friend to me ever since she moved back from Colorado. I sent her a message asking her what time she would leaving for church. Part of me wanted to hide again from the world but I knew I didn't want to get stuck. So I told myself to get up and get in the shower to get going and get ready for church no matter what.
(She and I have been checking out a different church than we have been going.)
I went next door to get in her vehicle to leave. I still found myself wanting to escape but I didn't. We arrived and I felt a little worried that I would get emotional during the worship music. She said that would be alright.
The music began and the heart started to ache but I felt engulfed by His presence around me :) tears shortly followed after about the 3rd song.
We left afterward and went to her house to continue our conversation that we started in the car about the sermon and things that had caused her anxious and some stress last week. We enjoyed warm apple cider, cheese and pumpkin cranberry crackers together, with a chill in the air and cloudy sky, we felt fall and felt warm and cozy inside.
After I left her house I went to ask my daughter Sara, if she wanted to go with me to the bookstore. I asked her along the way if she was hungry and what she wanted to eat. She said she didn't know....but I did :) so I asked her again and with a huge smile she said Wildflower! So we enjoyed bread bowls with our favorite potato cream cheese soup!
We walked into the bookstore, the air was cool and crisp, it felt good.
Later at home my husband and I enjoyed a cup of hot chai tea.
Soon in the late afternoon my friend returned home and I went next door to give a little gift and we shared conversation for a little while and parted ways for the day.
Between church, music, cool crisp air, hot drinks, warm soup and good company God made my day!
Very thankful
I am broken
but God fills in the pieces
and He is my strength and my hope.
When we feel so broken is when the Lord has the best ahead for us. To often I have hurried ahead of him during this process,and missed out on his best for me,and more spiritual growth. Don't make my mistake,you can get through this in his Grace" and his best is going to come for your life,that's what I pray for you. Love you Sunshine" ♥
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