A New Journey

For many of us we find ourselves in different seasons of life.  Then there are some that start new chapters in their story....or on a new road, however you want to look at it or call it, you are never alone.  I feel as if I've started a new journey and through this journey it will have moments of ups and downs, moments of tears, moments of joys but the journey will only help me walk closer with God.

I know of a few people that I think we could say are on a "new journey" of life.  The sweet man that I have taken care of for the last 11 months.  He recently lost his wife of 67 years. I can only imagine the feeling of loss that he feels but I also see how he knows and lives with the reassurance of knowing that his bride is in Heaven with His Heavenly Father and that he too will one day be reunited with her.  But now he has to journey on in this life without her by his side.  He will be alright during this new journey of his with his faith and trust in the Lord and with the support of his loved ones that he has by his side until his journey comes to an end.....to only lead to a better beginning with Him.

I feel as though I'm party of his journey, in a small way.  I have found myself feeling as though that I'm sitting idle too long and that I need to get up and check on things.  There is an empty space in this house but I still can feel the presence of the Lord and see the joy and love that she left behind with her family.

My daughter is 18 today!  I'm happy, excited, scared, worried and overwhelm.  I love my daughter and I'm proud of her.  She is beautiful inside and out but I have to really start letting go of her and continue working on really truly surrendering her life over to the Lord. There are times lately I find myself frustrated with her, or disagreeing with her, or really wishing I could just control all aspects of her life but I can't.  I have to let you grow and change and live and learn on her journey in this life.  I know the Lord isn't far from her even if she holds him at a distance.  She was His child and will be His child and live as His child again.  Its just that she isn't walking close to Him right now and has wondered on her own worldly path that I worry, I'm concerned and scared.  This world is so big!  I know what my life was like before I let God into my heart and want to grow in Christ.  But I also know that no matter how hard all this seems to me I will continue to lean on God and ask him for his strength and guidance and have hope in him.  I will trust him beyond my understanding as I love my daughter on her journey.