Deep Breath

Today I woke up tired and not feeling good.  My Fibro acting up some.  I enjoyed a cup of coffee and cleaned the kitchen and started laundry.  I should have gone to church.  Instead I got up and went to the grocery store.  After putting things away I sat on the couch to relax some while waiting for Karlee to get home, then we were going to go look for a pair of jeans for her.

While sitting there I received a text message from Scott (my ex-husband)  He had asked me to call him when I got a moment.  I called him right then and he asked me what I was doing tomorrow.  I actually have "off" so I asked what was up.  He said that he wanted me to go with him to the VA Hospital in Prescott.  He wasn't feeling well and he had been urinating blood and some clots.  It doesn't sound good and we still do not know all that can and could be going on in his body right now, so I'm glad he has decided to go.

On our way back from the mall, Karlee and I were almost home when I received a text message.  It was from a friend of mine.  I have been concerned about our friendship lately and was really shocked at the message I read.....I instantly was angry and hurt at the same time.  She said that she has an issue with but doesn't want to tell me about it and wants our friendship to dissolve.

I'm tired on all levels right now.  I took a moment to confide in a friend, then said a prayer.  I took a deep breath to go look over my list of things that I wanted to get done today to see what I could motivate myself to do.  I picked one thing and did it.  I'm working through things in my head....hence this post and now I'm completely empty and need to lay day and shut things out for a bit and take a nap.

Soon I will hear my little sunshine girl walking in the house from her fun filled days at Disney land.  I look forward to her being home, I've missed her.  I hope she won't be grumpy tomorrow when I get her up for school.....