Pondering the new year

The new year is in full swing with or without me.  The holidays were rough and looking back at what I wrote in my prayer journal I think you could say that I was depressed.  Since then I have gotten out of my depression to only find myself more in a pick up your feet and sigh real deeply keeping going mood now.  

The new year may not seem like it has started any different than the last year but there is a difference.  I know some may say not to look back in the past and just start a new day.  I think there is even a bible verse about something along the lines of not looking back too....but it's the looking back that will offer me strength, courage, and grace to go into the new year.  It's looking back at the joys and blessings of moments of happiness with my family.  Those moments will bring a smile to my face when I might find it hard to smile.  It's those reflections that will bring joy to my day and a little laughter when I need a pick me up. It's looking back on the hard, frustrating, tearful moments and thanking the Lord for them.  It's through them that my life has been changed and it's what helps me grow closer to the Lord.  

Thank you for last year.  Thank you for getting me through the holidays.  Thank you for taking my hand now and walking along with me into the new year.  I'm not alone.  I will have a year with you Lord in all that it will bring.  Thank you Lord.  I'm ready with you.....