My Beautiful Blessing

Sara is such a sweet little soul.  She truly was a gift from up above.  She has such a way to put a smile on my face and cheer in my heart when I don't want to feel those things when I'm in the middle of something negative or hurtful.

She came into my life years ago during a very bad time.  I wanted to leave her father.  I was selfish and bitter that I was pregnant with her.  I wanted to stay thin and didn't want to go through things with her father.  Sadly I was angry not with her but I think you could say with God.  Thinking back I think that is the only time I felt anger toward God.  It's awful to think about and hard to admit to now.

When Sara was born she had a huge bruise like looking thing on her bottom.  I had myself convinced tht it was my fault because of the feelings I felt while she was in my tummy and with all the yelling and arguing tha went on the outside of her.  To this day she is sensitive and broken with tears when yelling and fighting goes on with her loved ones.  (The mark went away over time)

She was brought in our lives as an attempt to bind her father and I together.  It helpt a little longer but wehen she was three I divorced her father.  She has a link to us both.  When she was a baby she would watch her father and the little look in her eyes she would have when looking up at his face.  She knew her daddy.  To this day she stands strong when someone dares to say something negative about him (even if its true).  She loves her daddy through and through she doesn't see what others might see.

Yesterday she came to my resuce withher happy bright blue eyes and her sweet big smile and her arms full of love as they encircled around me.  It didn't take long for her to have me talking and smiling and laughing just a little.  She helped change the rest of the evening for me and with God's strength I was at peace when I laid down to go to sleep.

She is my little blessing from God.

Thank you