Restoration

This morning during my quite time I felt lead to read Psalm 126. 

In one of many emailed devotionals: 1Samuel 16:7
But the Lord said to Samuel, "Don't judge by his appearance or height, for I have rejected him.  The Lord doesn't see things the way you see them.  People judge by outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart."

On my way back up from my walk after leaving Sara at school I saw that the garage door was open and Micah was getting ready to go to work.  Yes, work. I was happy to see him dressed for work and actually going to work.  I hope the rain holds out so he can get a good day in.

I asked how he was and he asked me back too.  He asked me how work was going and if I had heard anything back from the food stamp office.  Then there was a brief moment of silence and he got into his truck and I made a comment "wow you really are that distant from me" he looked puzzled and I said "not even a hug".  He smiled and said "I didn't think you wanted one."  I replied "I always need a hug".  He got out of his truck and we hugged closely.  It was a nice hug, not a short run off type of hug.  It felt so nice to be hugged, his arms around me and close to his warm body.  I closed my eyes during the hug taking it all in.

I went next door and he drove off to get started on his day.  I came in the house and closed the door and then the tears came.

This was also in my email:
Gentleness (a willingness to decrease our lectures and increase our tender expressions of love) is a key to martial growth.  Tenderness acts like like a firebreak to an advancing, angry forest fire.

So between the Restoration and not judging and gentleness I got out of it that:

 God will restore joy in this situation, and for me to not look or read so much into what isn't being said or expressed by Micah and let God work in his heart and know that he is, and to be gentle and loving in my actions and not express myself so much verbally right now.