Have you ever had so much going on or some many things build up or read 2 or 3 books at a time and felt engulfed with all that you learned or experienced that you just want to collapse from mental, emotional and physical exhaustion?
Then when you do finally rest you just sit there and zoning out and sighing peacefully to yourself....
This past weekend I was so discouraged and at an emotional low point. There was a little bump in my path that sort of set off several other bumps to come up, which made traveling down that path very bumpy and feeling like its just not going to end.
I sat in my van in the park crying uncontrollably for a few minutes. Then after several thoughts that would enter my mind then leave again I shouted these words "I can't do this!" The moment those words left my mouth I stopped crying and a peaceful sigh escaped me. I took a few minutes to gather my thoughts and wipe my tear stained face and went home.
I went home feeling really heavy. I didn't know what to say or do with myself. My husband held me in his arms for a few minutes while I found a few more tears to unleash again. Then as the day went on there were little rays of hope that were trying to push through my clouds that were around me. The right song on the radio came on.....the right bible verse to read....the right daily emailed devotional....the right paragraph to read in my bible study book....you name it, it was meant for me to read or hear.
God was there. He had me in his hands. I became filled with hope again and ready to keep walking forward with Him.
You in my prayers, I don't know what is going on but you're right. . .you are in His hands.
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