Monday, May 16, 2011

Looking at myself through my daughter's words

Karlee & I were talking yesterday about different things. One of them being was about how Dillon and I get along and then the other was Micah & I.  There were times she would say something like this "you have know when to choose your battles", "you just need to let the little stuff go", "let Micah handle it and if you don't like it then talk to him later about it", "mom sometimes you push it too much", "just let him figure it out on his own, you told him and doesn't want to listen so just let him figure it out and in the long wrong he'll know you were right".

I stood there listening but staring at her in awe for what seemed like for hours but really just a few minutes.  The first thing that I thought of was how much she sounded like Micah and a few other people in my life.  The second was how much she reminded me of myself.  I use to talk to my mom the way she was talking to me, sounding so wise with her words.  (being more of the adult than the child)  I couldn't help but feel as if I had gone back in time and I just stood there feeling frozen as I listened to her.  I was offended or anything, I didn't take any of it the wrong way.  I listened and took it all in.

It was like looking in a mirror, not only could I see myself in her but I could see how I can be when I struggle with choosing to respond how God would.  The whole conversation with her was very humbling.  I walked away with a heavy heart wanting to choose a better way to respond the next encounter with a trial or a situation.

Thank you Karlee and thank you God for using her and giving the words to show her "momma" how to respond next time.

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