What I thought would be neat to have

Last night I went to listen to JJ Heller in concert. It was amazing. I loved all her songs and her voice is awesome. She and her husband have written some inspiring, insightful,powerful, uplifting, truthful songs. Some songs tugged at my heart.

They announce that they are going to do a drawing for a couple of prizes and to go register. So I go put my name in the box. The prizes were a stack of CDs and an autographed harmonica (which they said could be worth money later on as JJ's singing career continues to take off). I get excited and whisper to my husband that it would be great to win the stack of CDs. I love music and the thought of winning all that music would be totally awesome.

It's been a while and now they have decided to do the drawing. The first guy says lets do the drawing for the harmonica but then the other one says no lets draw for the CDs. So when they didn't call my name I was a little disappointed. So next was the drawing for the harmonica. The guy holding the box stumbled or something because he dropped the box and some of the papers fell out of the box. I guess a little more mixing up was needed :)

As soon as the guy picked the paper up and I saw it just there in his hand before he opened it to read the name on the paper I had this feeling.....I just knew. (It was strange but exciting at the same time) He starts off saying "Katrina" and then has trouble saying my last name but I stood up and pronounced my name as I began walking up to the stage to receive my prize...the autographed harmonica. I was in shock at first since I'd never won anything before. I never had much luck in drawings or door prizes, things like that.

I sit back down and my husband was beaming with a huge smile. He had been thinking how cool it would be to have the harmonica. It really didn't matter at the moment what I had won I was just excited about winning something.

After the concert on the way home in the car we all talked about the concert and how we each enjoyed it. I mentioned how I just knew that was my name on that neatly folded piece of paper and my husband said he knew I was going to win that harmonica.

Funny how we each think one thing and then something different happens. It just continues to show to me that I'm not in control of the big picture. God is. Its comforting to know that I don't have to "plan" out everything.

Lyrics to a song I heard last night:

Not Mine Anyway

I don't know what to say
No words could ever be enough
I stand up because you hold me here
Because you brought me here tonight

Without you we all fall down
Without you we all fall

You make life worth living
You make me want to start giving
More and more away to you
It's not mine anyway

I could not ever try so hard
I could buy a place in your heart
But here I am
My name written on your hands
Because you paid the debt I owe

Without you we all fall down
Without you we all fall