A Typical Sunday

I love this color when the leaves turn in the Fall.

After Sara and I woke up we headed to the office I work at so she could clean.  That is her little job that she does twice a month.  After that we went to the grocery store.  We went home and unloaded the groceries and ate some lunch.  We decided to go out and about one more time and went to browse at Whole Foods.  Long about 2:00pm we called it a day.  I went home and called my mom.  We talked about Thirty One.  She went to visit her friends at the bank to see if she could round up a few orders for me this month or next.  I was a little more in the mood to clean and get things done around our little home so I folded my laundry, cleaned the kitchen and later cooked a yummy dinner of ham, mashed potatoes and gravy and green bean casserole.  The three of us enjoyed our Sunday dinner together at the table before parting ways for the rest of the evening.  It was a nice Sunday.  I found myself thankful for the time and energy to make a nice dinner for us to share.  Sara was out by 8:30 and I went to bed an hour later.

Something for Me

Watched the latest Transformer Movie.

Saturday we all were tired about going to bed late from getting back from Kyle's game in Prescott and picking Sara up from her friends house.  Anyways Sara and I ran some errands together and then by mid afternoon we called it a day on doing anything else productive and decided we would relax.  She went up to her room (Kyle was a friends house) and I closed the blinds and made dark, grabbed a cozy blanket and propped up some pillows to get comfy on my bed and put a movie one to watch on my computer.  Yep a movie!  For me that is something I haven't down in a really long time.  I had afternoons like that when I was with Micah.  Anyways I spend the next couple of hours, by myself comfy and cozy watching a movie.  By the time it was over it was dark outside and around 6:45 pm.  No one was pestering me about dinner so it was all good.  Kyle ended up staying over at his friends. and Sara and I just fixed this or that for dinner.  It was nice to lay around and a watch a movie.  

Taking time out to do something you enjoy is alright to do and is needed at times.  I'm a single mom now that tries her best to keep things going and makes sure everyones' needs are met. So taking time out for myself to watch a movie is the best thing to do!

Happy to go

Yesterday when I got off work I went home changed into comfy jeans, a sweat shirt and warm shoes, packed the car with a couple of blankets and my stadium seat.  I was ready.  Ready to drive to Prescott to attend an away football game so I could watch my son play.  If you know me well you will know that this was a big deal for me.  I went by myself, not sure where to go but my phone lead the way.  The drive there wasn't bad.   My phone lead me to an elementary school instead of the high school, that wasn't cool.  But I had plenty of time.  I didn't freak out, I sat in the parking lot of the wrong school and typed in the high school address and then in 10 mins I was there!

I had tossed the idea around of going to Kyle's game but didn't fully commit until the last minute.  I think when Sara bailed out on me and went to her friends' house then I was secretly trying to talk myself out of going.  Last night Kyle asked me if I was going and I said that I was planning on it.  Then during the day I sent him a text and said that Sara wasn't going and said I wasn't sure if I was still going.  I then asked him if he really wanted me to go and he said yes.  So thats all I needed to motivate myself to drive to Prescott, a happy son!

The drive places during the day isn't too much of an issue, its the thought of driving at night.  I think Karlee is right I have made it out to be more than what it should be.  I stress myself out more than what is needed.  I get nervous when I don't know for sure where I'm going, I feel like I can't trust my phone (funny that is actually true), I don't like windy roads, I trust my driving just not others.  So with all that going on in my head its no wonder my hands are tired from gripping the wheel and my body is so tense driving down the road.

So I was proud of myself when I got to the school.  I parked and gathered my things and headed into where I needed to be to get settled in and watch the game.  I bought a hot dog, chips and a drink and was ready to watch.  It got darker and cold soon but I focused on the game.  I was surrounded by tons of supportive parents and friends that were there to watch their sons' play.  I was surprised at the turn out.

The game was nearing the end.  (we lost) and I started telling myself its going to be fine driving home in the dark.  I will be alert and I will see fine and it will all be good.  Well it wasn't long after that the game was over and the team was lining up to go shake hands and congratulate the other team.  I was in my own world, then I looked up and I saw Kyle putting his hand out like telling me to stop and shouted out don't leave mom.  I said okay and I was thankful that I looked up when I did to see him getting my attention (thank you God).

Before they ran back in with all their gear to get ready to change and leave, Kyle runs over and says mom wait for me I want to ride back with you.  I was beaming inside and out!  Hearing those words made me so happy!  My son wanted to ride home with me!!!!  I didn't have to drive back in the dark by myself!!!  So happy!

I waited for him and then he came out the door of the school and he looked so tired.  I told him how happy I was that he was riding back with me.  He said he had decided that earlier but had forgotten to tell me and wasn't sure he would catch me before I got up to leave.

We got in the car, headed to the closest place to get him something to eat.  Left Sonic and headed home.  It was so nice, he helped me make sure I was following my phone where to go and then once he felt I was okay he leaned back to relax.  We did spend some time talking, we talked more about his frustrations with football this year.  It was nice to talk with him.  I understand more now after experiencing an away game, I heard the parents talk and complain about similar things that Kyle has talked about.  Its amazing what you hear when you stand in line at the ladies bathroom.

We made our way home safe and sound.

Before the game started (Kyle is number 23)

I'm happy I went.

Friends, Family & Comfort

Angelia and Karlee came for a visit last weekend.

This is us on our way to Kyle's football game.

This little cutie is Angelia's little one.  

There is always something special caring for a little one.

My selfie on the mountain.

Angelia had a nice idea and helped me get through the weekend that marked a year without my daddy.  The girls and I picked a pine tree with an aspen intwined the the middle of it to make as a little place to think of my dad.  I had a few of his ashes left and we added a little of my dad to Flagstaff in Heart Praire on the mountain.

Karlee carved on the tree.

After we left the mountain just in time before it started to downpour with rain we went to out to eat pizza together in honor of my daddy.

Random Thoughts

Last week on the drive home from Walmart with Sara.  I love rainbows.  A wonderful reminder of God and his promises.

My daddy!  

A magnet I kept from my dad's house.  Its a good reminder and put a smile on my face the other day when I was feeling a little negative.

This makes me smile and think of my daddy.  He loved frogs.

A treat that I thought I had to have last Friday....so yummy!

Lol Sara saw this little note to myself....she says mom its like you are really old and need help remembering things....well I'm not really old but I do find myself reminding myself to remember things....and you know what I never did make that banana bread, I waited to long and had to throw them out.

My shrimp eater lives in Phoenix so I missed her but enjoyed the shrimp :)

Did you ever go back to a place that you thought you belonged but realized you never did and wonder why you tried so hard for so long....

Colors, changes, chills, crisp air, Fall.  I love the change of seasons

Trying to take care of myself again.  Went to the doc about my Fibromyalgia and trying out some medicine and feeling better :) 

A little mixed about this month starting, its been such a tough year. 

Spent a lot of this year grieving....daddy, my marriage.  So many changes but still moving forward.

This week, last night Sara and I on our way to dinner.

One of Sara's favorite places!  Bread bowl with potato soup here we come!

I enjoyed putting a smile on Sara's face last night, when she hasn't been feeling so well lately.

Look at those leaves!  

Karlee's 19th Birthday

A week without Karlee

My Karlee girl moved down to Phoenix.  I know she is only 2 hours away but.....I have missed her so much!  The pictures below are what we took before Sara and I drove to Phoenix to move her and her stuff.

I love to see all three of them together!

Silly girls!

a tight squeeze, hard to let go...

Karlee in her new room.

Our home is not the same without her, it has changed the dynamics of it.  We all have been adjusting.  The first night I laid in bed waiting for her to walk in from work and say "I'm home".  Then the next night waiting for her to come home from hanging out with her friends.  During the day has been the toughest I think because sometimes she would come see me at work or we would meet for lunch.  She has been one that I have depended on helping get Sara to and from or when someone forgets something and needs it at school.  I have missed her moodiness too.  I know she will do well and be fine on her own.  She will go through little challenges but she will get through them.

Sara has enjoyed the idea of having of her own room and is okay during the day but when it came to the first few nights alone in a room that she once shared with Karlee she couldn't do it.  She slept with me for the first 2 nights and had a friend over the 3rd but now she is okay and has been fine to sleep in her big room all to herself.  Sara has missed her greatly too.

Kyle, well Kyle is quite but I know he has missed Karlee as well.  They have exchanged a few messages to show that he has missed her too.

Karlee has gone through the adjustment of having to cook her own food for dinner.  I tried to get her in the kitchen but she never wanted to.  Now she finds herself on Pinterest looking for quick, easy recipes to make for herself.  Its a little funny.........and I did try....oh well she will figure it out.

It almost feels like she went away on a trip and will be back soon, especially since we will see her this weekend.  We are meeting at my Uncle's and my mom too and we will be able to celebrate Karlee's 19th birthday!  After that there will be a long stretch of time that will go by before we will see each other again.....

But for now we are taking one day at a time......